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Congrats Jenny, I am so happy for you, I really did think that you would have another sac there. So how many weeks does that make you. I am 6 wks in 2 days and counting, I can't wait for my other u/s next week, the waiting is killing me. You go girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Christie
- how come your u/s is so far away? Everything will be fine. I know it.
Nix - good luck in the 2ww we are here to support you

Eddie,

I dont know why mine is so far out., but it sounds like after yall did yall's first u/s that are wanting yall to go back the same week i go for my first one, right? I know that Jenny second u/s is the 16th when do you go for you're second one? I cant wait i feel good about it. I am trying to be positive. I went to church this weekend and talked to my friends and let them know that i was PG, but then i started thinking that maybe i should have waited because if something goes wrong then i am going to have to listen to people say Congrads when i aint PG. I know that it is just my negitive side.

Well i hope you are feeling ok and my prayer are with all of us. Baby dust to all of us.

Christie

Well, I am new to this site...however reading all of your posts definitely help give me some hope! So far all of my preliminary testing has come back fine, we found that my husband has a low count. We have undergone 1 IUI and it was unsuccessful about a year ago...my doctor didn't recommend trying again and thought IVF with ICSI was our way to go. After trying to come up with the means financially, we have just done our first round of Invitro (I say first round because I am so negative and feel that we will definitely have to do this numerous times :( My transfer was on 8/02, we had 2 eggs implanted (I am only 25 and the doctor thought that was proper protocol) and they were grade 2 and 3 (B & C) That was the first thing that upset me, can anyone relate? Has anyone had successful pregnancies on a day 3 transfer with those grades? The day 3 transfer also has me worried, after reading and reading, I feel as if a day 5 transfer is almost better in any situation??? I am so nervous, they had me on Lupron, Gonal F, Menopur and antibiotics....now I am doing progrestrone shots....I don't really feel anything different at this point, although my transfer was only 5 days ago, I just wish I felt something, even emotionally. What a ride we are on. I guess I have typed a novel now, I would love any insight that you might have, I love reading the success stories, they touch my heart! And I can only hope that one day I am writing one of my own ;)

Jenny,

This is Dani. I am so glad to hear all went well with your U/S. This is so exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MJ,
After reading your email I want to do the HPT too :)
Which brand did you buy? Did you use first morning urine? My nurse said that if it comes out positive it is more likely that you are pregnant. CONGRATS!

Christie - sorry for making you cry. You will understand completely next week what a rush you get on that first ultrasound.

Eddie - thanks so much for the you go girl. I am gald that I met you and Christie on this site. We will have to let the kids know all about it as they grow up. I actually started a journal years ago about my trials and tribulations with infertility. YOu never know if it wil pass on especially to girls.

cdad - Welcome. We are here for you through your journey. As far as I know you can have the lowest grade tranferred and still have a pregnancy. It only takes one to implant. I know it is hard and this 2ww is torture. There has been a lot of talk lately on the 3 day vs. 5 day transfer. I have had both. Like I have recommended to others before don't look to much into what symptoms you do or don't have. My RE sent a paper home staing that your symptoms can come and go, you can have some, all or none and still have a positive result. I just got my first u/s and I really don't have many symptoms. A girl on the pregnancy after infertility did not have any symptoms until her 8th week. So whether you do or don't have symptoms does not mean you are or are not pregnant. Just hang in there sweetie and there are plenty of us here to talk when you need to. Be positive and trust your body at this point. Take pride in your embies and remember that you are pregnant until the test says otherwise. Take care of yourself. Baby dust to you and best wishes for a dream come true. One day you will be right here with the rest of us giving the same advice to a newbie that is stressing over their 2ww.

Dani - I would recommend an EPT. Those usually are the most trustworthy ones. I think when I got a BFN 5 days before a BFP I used one called Accuclear. Or something like that. Thank you very much for your post. It does get exciting around this forum at times. All the ups and downs that we all go through yet we make it through them. When is your beta or are you already BFP?!?!! Talk to you later.


Nix - Welcome back. I knwo it is hard not to get yourself so worked up but honey try to calm down a little. That is what is best for you, your body and your future baby. We are here for you. Try not to feel disappointed already. As I have said before it only takes one sperm and one egg to make your dreams come true. Please be patient and relax as much as possible. Don't send negatives thoughts or energy to your womb. I know it is hard and this is coming from someone who is not is your shoes right now but one day I was there in your shoes. I have had my insides completely rewired ot have a baby. I had gastric bypass 2 years ago because I was told that at over 300 pounds I only had a 20% chance of going full term. By that time I had already had 2 miscarriages and I was hell bent and determined that I was not going to go out like that. I also was not going to let my dream end there. And I am sure you will not let your dream end here. There is a poem that soemone wrote that I am going to post back on here for all of us to see and remind us of what we are fighting for and that there is a light at the end of all of our tunnels one way or another. Best wishes and babydust to you. Take care.

Hey girls - as promised a poem to read that may help lift our spirits during those tough days.


Author Unkown:


There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought,
without patience or loss and though they are good mothers
and love their children, I know that I will be better.



I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.



Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation
are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.



I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night
to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him
and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill,
take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.



I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight,
this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.



Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to,
I will not be careless with my love.



I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor,
friend and sister because I have known pain.



I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body.
I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.



I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won.



So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain
in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.



I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine,
of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth
and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion
that only comes with walking in those shoes.



I have learned to appreciate life.



Yes I will be a wonderful mother


Take care all and sticky babydust to each and every one of us!!!!! ;)

Thanks Jenny. My beta is on Thursday. I was thinking about trying the HPT tomorrow morning....how scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the suggestion. This is the one I'll buy.

I will keep you posted.

Hugs
Dani

Dani - good luck. But, if by any chance it says BFN don't worry. I am proof that it alwaus does not mean what it says. I also believe that there are more false negatives then false positives. You may even read that on the instructions or maybe even websites. Good luck and babydust to you. Take care and I will talk to you later.

Jenny,

When I sent you my previous reply I had not seen your poem. I guess we sent a reply at the same time.

I loved it! That is really really true. We now truly appreciate the miracle of life.

Take care,

Dani

Dani~ Hey... I can't believe your giving in too!!! It kind of makes it worse but I know it is too hard NOT to do! I used the ClearBlue digital but I sort of wish I had used EPT just so that I could see how dark the second line is. I am still so worried that it is lingering HCG from the trigger but I am holding out on doing another one, my Beta is on Thursday. I agree with Jenny... if it is negative it could just be too early to use hpt... but for a second it eases the nuttiness you feel!

Jenny~ I am so excited that your u/s went so well, I can't imagine what an amazing feeling it is to see your baby for the first time! I know it will be even more amazing to hear that little heart beat! I loved the poem and am printing it to maybe put in a baby book someday ;).

Nikki and CDAD- hang in there, the 2ww is just plain awful but the support for everyone here will help you so much. It will pass by quickly!

Good morning everyone!

Dani - good luck with the HPT! Hopefully you will have a positive result and remember the advice Jenny gave if it is BFN for right now!

Nikki and cdad - welcome and just remember to keep praying during this 2ww. If you attempt to keep positive and busy mentally, it will go better! Everyone here has wonderful advice and knowledge so rely on this list serve to help you on your down days. I, too, had the same worries regarding 3 vs. 5 day transfers and have been given reassurance by a few people that there are successes with both. Just know that your RE did what was best for you and your embies!

MJ - I caved last night also and did an HPT. Also had the faint blue line and am so curious if it is my HCG still there or not. As we've all discussed previously, there are no standard symptoms so it is difficult to tell. My bbs are sore, but were also sore last time. The only thing that is different this time is that I have cramping down closer to my pelvic bone and I didn't have that last time. I guess I'll know more on Friday when I go for my beta! Good luck to you and Dani on Thursday!! I'll continue to add you to my prayer list.

Jenny - thank you so much for the encouragement to everyone. It is wonderful that you can offer advice knowing that you've been there also. I'm so excited about your next u/s and hope you continue to keep us updated. God bless that little baby of yours!!

Have a great day everyone!

Red, I have been such a bad influence ;)! I think it would be very interesting if we both got positives and they are wrong, so MAYBE THEY ARE RIGHT!!!! Wouldn't that be the greatest thing ever!! I so wanted to do another one today or the next but I don't have any and I am refusing to let myself go out and buy another one. I am feeling the same thing you are... bbs sore, cramping in pelvic area, especially when I first stand up after sitting for a long time or when I need to pee! Other than that I am really not feeling anything else, not tired or extra hungry, no nausea... but I think it would still be too early for that. Yours is on Friday? We are getting so close!!

MJ - Yes, you are a bad influence (you know, that takes me back to my mom saying, "if someone told you to jump off a bridge, would you? :P)!! Actually, it was right there in my face also, but I just didn't have the audacity to actually do it. You were just the little nudge I needed. When I got the call from my Dr. office yesterday, my estrogen and progesterone had both gone up so that was also encouraging. I know that others have encouraged us all stating that numbers can be low and still have a BFP, but I was still happy they increased. Yes, we are close. It actually has gone by pretty fast as this time I realized it didn't matter how anxious I got, if it was in God's plan, it would happen. Although, I keep showing him my planner and explaining that my timeline is a little different, but we know how that goes ::)..

Anyway, Thursday will be here before you know it and you and Dani will be getting your official results. I pray your results are definitely BFP and that you can move into the next "waiting phase" until the first u/s!!!

Oh yeah, I still have one HPT left, but don't think I'll be using it before Friday (of course, I wasn't even going to do the 1st one was I??). I have a busy rest of the week so maybe it won't even be a thought on my brain.

Red and MJ - I did seom researching for the 2 of you as wella s called my RE's office about the HCG question. According to the IVF nurse there the maximum amount of time that the HCG would possbibly remain in your system would be 10 days. And she said that is stretching it. So get prepared. I do believe you will have BFP on your betas. I hope this helps you all to think positive as you are nearing the very long homestretch. Best wishes and thank you both for your thoughful and kind posts about me. I can tell you this from what I have read that cramping, stretching or a twingy feeling usually are a positive sign. I too have had my share of just wanting to scream and say can this get any worse. But I made it and so will the rest of you. Talk to you all later. Best wishes and sticky babyduust mommies to be!!!!! :)

Jenny-Thank you so much for doing the research to put our minds at ease. That is the sort of stuff that has us writing about you. People on here know they have been there themselves and want to put other people at ease. I know I truly appreciate the support as I didn't see things as positively after my last transfer. I hope we both get positive results also! I've added you people to my prayer list to continue receiving blessings along our journey! We have all come into each other's lives for reason and/or a season and I feel blessed to have found you guys!