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Welcome Sarah, :)

Girl, I know how you feel! It's not an easy situation to be in and it makes it hard when people ask you ?'s like that. My dh's fam is like that. When we went to one of the fam reuions my dh's uncle was like when are you guys going to have kids,my FIL use to say when are you going to give me grand babies? Steve (my dh) whats wrong you're not doing your job? The uncle didn't know whats up, but my FIL knew and he for some reason still say crap like that. I just want to run off and cry or tell them off. I usually walk away from and usually in tears I still don't know how to deal w/ it sometimes. I do have times where I'll tell people that it's not easy for everyone and we are trying and we might need extra help.

I know how it feels to be around people w/ kids and you feel like that you just don't belong or that you'll never experience that joy of having kids. I am so glad that you found this forum and I know you will find lots of support. There are so many women that know where you are coming from and then you also hear all these great sucess stories of women who have been TTC and they finally did.

Girl, all I can tell you is keep your head up and know you have a BIG support group here, we got your back ;D
Try to stay positive.

Take care, hope to talk to you soon

<3 KIM

I just saw on your profile that you live in Idaho, my really good friend just moved there w/ her dh and beautiful 3 boys .They actually got there today they left last thurs. I really miss her she was a great support for me :'(. She never had problems concieving, but she always had GREAT advice for me and tips too. Anyways I just saw that so I wanted to tell ya. talk to you later.

Sarah,

Hello and Welcome to the site! You will find a wonderful support system here for you.

When we were going through our infertility issues people would ask all the time when we were going to have a baby. My dh came up with a good comback of "we are practicing!" Believe it or not it got people off our backs, they just smiled and laughed. Worked like a charm for us.

Take care and good luck
Liz

Thanks everyone,

Your messages helped me a lot. I'm just not good at comebacks when people talk to me. I think I'll try to say something that will make people laugh.

I also know exactly what you mean when your extended family say rude things. My husband has no sperm at all. The reason is unknown so for some reason my uncle thinks its really funny that he is shooting blanks. He also tells me that I should find someone for a one night stand. He thinks thats so funny.

Thanks for the advice and take care :)

Sarah,

You are very welcome thats what we are here for :) Having this forum has helped me alot w/ the ups and downs w/ TTC.

Wow thats pretty cold that his uncle says that about you dh. I liked what liz had to say about telling people that you are practicing. Thats a good one, I sometimes say we are having fun while trying.

Well I hope all goes well and you get the answers that you are looking for. I'm tired so I'm going to bed.

Talk to you later, take care
Kim :)

Thanks Kim,

Hey it looks like you got married young also. My DH and I married when we were 22 at college. People said we were crazy because we were so young but I'm so glad that we did. It looks like you have been trying for as long as we have.

If you don't mind me asking, which road are you planning? IUI or IVF? My husband and I are doing IUI with donor sperm. Its been hard trying to find a bank and a donor that is like my husband.

Anyway thanks for listening and hope everything is going fine

Sarah

Hey Sarah,

My dh and I have been married for almost 4yrs (April 19)
He was 19 and I was 20, everyone that were our friend or family didn't think we were to young, but other people thought we were. I have always wanted to be married young and have kids young. I got the married part right,but not the kids :( I'm not saying I am old, but I feel like I am in my eyes bcuz I wanted kids right away.

My dh and I wont be doing IUI or IVF just yet. I don't think (hope not) we will have to take that road. Right now I am tyring to figure out to do clomid or the ovulex. One of the reasons I would want to do ovulex is bcuz it is natural and probably be less expensive. I have heard good and bad things about ovulex but the same for clomid. I know that everyones body can be diff, there for diff results. I thought I had it all figured out, but I don't yet, but thats ok maybe there is a reason for that. I just need to take it one day at a time. Only God knows whats instore for us. I do think that we are not meant to have kids, it is just when? Maybe God is teaching me patience, cuz I always like it on my time and it is not all about that. I know it'll happen and it'll happen for you guys, just keep your head up and take it one day @ a time.

I gotta run I work @ the gym tonight and I have to be there for 2:30 I'll talk to you later, keep :)

KIM

Kim,

I hope the drugs work for you without having to do IUI or IVF. It would be much cheaper. My husband and I started to take classes for adoption but it is so expensive. With donor sperm it is a few hundred dollars for each time you try instead of the thousands you would spend adopting.I am going to try a few IUI without drugs first so I have no idea what type of drugs you would need or use.

I also feel really old even though I know I'm not. I felt old not having a baby when I was 24 because we had already been trying for one year. Its so hard when you see all your cousins and friends start having babies that haven't even been married as long as you have. My DH has been so great through all this but its nice to talk to someone else going through the same process as me. I know I'm different because its my husband who is infertile but I felt like it was me for year and half when we were trying until he got tested. When we found out it was a relief to just know but so devastating also. Everyone said I should be grateful that it wasn't me, but they don't understand that it still means I will never have my husbands baby. It still hurts just as bad. I know that God will bless us too someday but it is hard to wait.

Keep going strong

Sarah

Hey Sarah,

I really hope that the IUI will work for you. I'm not to sure what kind of drugs w/ IUI, I think I have ssen other women on here that were on clomid. I know it must be hard not to have your dh's baby. I knew someone w/ the same problem and they did IVF, now they have a beautiful 3yr old boy and they couldn't be any more happier. I know that it is a hard situation to deal w/ but I know that you guys are strong and you guys will be blest.

I know what you mean about having fam members w/ kids in less time that you have been married. My SIL (sister in law) is now 21 w/ 2 beautiful girls (2 & 6mths)
She had a bad case of endomitriosis (sp?) and was told if she wanted to have kids she needed to hurry cuz she would need a histo. done. It took 5mths and she got preg. about 2wks b4 her wedding. I remember when she called my dh to tell us she was preg I balled my eyes out in the closet. I didn't think it was fair she was only 18, married for about 2wks & we were married for almost 2yrs and been trying for a yr. It was very hard to deal w/ bcuz I wanted to be the 1st to give his dad and g-pa the grand baby, now I just want to be the first to give them the boy. My dh's cousins have kids too. One has 1 baby girl and the other is preg w/ I think her 2nd baby girl. Neither of them are responsible and the one w/ just the 1 kid had the baby taken away from her. My dh's aunt has custody of her. It is such a sad situation and it kills me cuz we want kids so bad and they don't realize how blest they are to have them. I remember when my SIL told my FIL that she was preg.(w/ #2) We were at my dh's g-pa's house when she called my FIL. When my FIL hung up the phone he said "well they wont be @ the fam reuion Amy is preg" My FIL then said to us " you guys better hurry up and catch up w/ your sister" I went in the bathroom and called my mom and balled my eyes out. I could hear my dh telling his dad off for what he had said. What made me so upset was not just what he said, but I thought back to what my SIL siad to me the previous fam reuion. She said "Kim I'll have 2 kids b4 you even have 1" so when my FIL said that her words replayed back in my head and just tore my heart in 2 :( So I know where you are coming from and I know it doesn't make it easy.

I fell the same way I feel old bcuz I am 24 almost 25 and we have been trying for just over 3yrs. My dh and I wanted to start young bcuz we would love to have 4 to 6 kids ( I know we sound CRAZY) I just want to be young and have kids and enjoy them while I am young. I know someone that is 27 or 28 and is preg w/ #7 can you imagine? I know I just need to be patient and God will bless us :)

I am so glad that I have a GREAT dh that is very supportive, but I am really grateful for having this forum to share and talk w/ other women. It has been such a help and I am so blessed to have such a great support, I really hope you can keep getting the same support.

Well I have to go and get house work done and my SIL is calling me. talk to you later.

Kim :)

Hey Sarah,

I hope everything is going ok for you and all is well.
I haven't heard from you so I just wanted to drop in and see if everything is going ok.

Have a great night and I hope to hear from you soon.

Take Care,
Kim

Kim,

Sorry that I haven't written back. I don't have a computer at home and it was a three day weekend. Also my husband and I just ride horses all weekend and usually are outside doing other things.

I know exactly what you mean about your younger sister having kids before you. My sister is about three years younger and she has a one year old. She is also going to start trying in June or July because she wants her kids two years about. She is really supportive and was so upset at first when she got pregnant because it was a mistake. She was going to what until she was married one year but didn't have bc pills for three days and that was enough. She cried when she told me and wanted me to know first because she knew it would break my heart. My sister and I are really close that way. WHen I didn't go to her baby shower she was all right with it because she knew I would start crying.

My uncle is forty and his wife from russia got pregnant. She didn't want it and wanted an abortion. He then said that maybe they would adopt it out to us. We weren't really excited becasue I knew that she would end up with an abortion. ANd the next week she said she miscarried. I cried for so long that she even got pregnant and didn't want it. Even though it would be so strange to raise my uncles kid.

Anyway have to go back to work. Have a great day and stay strong. I know that you will get pregnant.

Sarah

Hey Sarah,

Sorry that I haven't written back, I have been very busy. I am leaving (driving ) for Fl tomorrow, so I have alot to do, I just wanted to stop bye and say hey and that I didn't forget about you :)

I don't know if I will have time to write while I am gone, so if I can't I'll talk to you when we get back.

I hope all is well and hope you are staying positive. Take care, hun and I will talk to you later.

I gotta run I haven't even packed yet YIKES!!! I don't like to be unorganized.

Take Care Always,
Kim :)

Kim,

Hope your trip is wonderful. I've never been to Fl, the furthest east I've been is to Boston. I wish I could go on a vacation. I'm a special ed aide and its busy this time of year. I will actually be a teacher by the end of the summer.

Also, my husband and I found a bank that we liked with a donor who is like him. Hopefully we can qualify and get started by may. I have been tracking my cycle for at least a year and half. I stopped doing temp but I'm going to start this next time because I need to really pinpoint my ov. Do you use opk sticks? I have only used those a few months and don't know what the best brand is. I have been using internet cheapies.

Anyway hope your trip was relaxing and everything is working out for you.

Take care,

Sarah

Hey Sarah,

My tirp was good we went down to Fl for a Bible conference. It was a nice trip down we made it in 24hrs, but the trip home was rough. It took us like 33hrs we had some bad weather coming back, snow, ice and fog in PA, NY and Conn. it also didn't help that af came Sun (the day we left) and we had to stop every 2hrs. I hate public bathrooms and I couldn't be picky bcuz I had no choice cuz af was not being very nice. I was in so much pain and it was so heavy I had super pluses and still had to stop 2hrs and sometimes less. My dh felt so bad that I was so misserable. I am glad he is understanding.

So how are you doing? So you found a donor that is like your dh? That is so good. I really hope all goes well for you guys and that soon you will be able to have your lil one.

I used the Clear Blue Easy fertility monitor and I liked that. My dr told me to use that it is more $$$ than others I think, but I think it is one of the better ones out there. I had mine given to me from a member at the health club I work at. it was such a bleesing that she gave that to me. Mine stoped working I don't know why I think my dh did something to it. It was working one morning and then the next it was in a different spot (dh moved it) and it did not work :( I need to get a new one soon.

Anyways I have to run. I have lots of laundry and cleanin up to do, my house was clean, then we got home and landed and YIKES it is a mess.

Take Care,
Kim

Kim,

I'm glad you made it back safely. I hate driving and I can't imagine taking a trip that would take 24 hrs. Especially if you hit bad weather. My husband and I ususally are stuck in Idaho for five months because we always have snow and ice and its awful driving conditions.

I'm sorry af showed. I also have bad periods and can't wait until I'm pregnant. My mom and sisters both said their afs were better after baby.

My doc also wants us to buy the cbe moniter. But someone at work had OPK sticks that aren't expired yet. So I think I will use those and temp until they are used up.

We were approved and bought five vials of the donor. I think that we will try to get them this month and store them ourselves. My dad is a vet and gave us a nitrogen tank and its cheaper that way in the long run.

How is everything going? Thats awesome that you work at a health club. I wish that I did that. I would work out more.

Take care and hope you get that positive soon!

Sarah

Hey Sarah,

I really don't mind driving (actually riding) it really isn't that bad and I enjoy it believe it or not. The trip down was great it was on the way back that was so rough and that was bcuz af wasn't very nice to me. I always enjoy doing road trips, I like it more when it is me and my dh cause it's great one on one time which I don't get often.

I agree I can't wait to get preg and I wont have to worry about af, also when you nurse you don't get af. I would die if I was one of those people who gets it during preg and nursing.

That it is awesome that your dad is giving you a nitrogen tank and that you will be saving $$$$ every lil bit counts right?

Everything is going pretty good I am just trying to keep my head up and take it one day at a time. I know that one day hopefully soon that I will get my bfp. It is all in God's hands and I know that he will take care of me.

I have been working at the gym for 3 1/2 yrs. I work in the childcare room and I work in the cafe. It really is a great gym and it's nice because I get a free membership and try to use it as much as possible. I work out only 3 days a wk, but I try to make it count. I work out w/ a friend on tues and take a hip hop class, on fri mornings I take a a strength class (let me tell you that trainer will kick your butt) and fri nights after I am done working I go do some cardio and maybe some weights and on sat mornings a take a pilates class :) I love that class it is such a great work out and sooo relaxing at the same time.

Speaking of the gym I have to go and get ready I have to be there at 3:00 I have to leave in like 30min and the weather isn't so great we had snow this am then freezing rain and now we have rain and then tonight who knows what it will be I think it will be snow again.

Talk to You Later
Take Care
Kim

Kim,

I know how much it means to get the bfp. I am praying that you get it soon, that everyone trying will get the bfp. I know if you have faith in the Lord that things will open up. Its just the waiting thats the hard part.

My Dh and I are driving to CA in may and hopefully I'll be pregnant by then. His sister is having a baby and a baptism at the same time and we are visiting. The drive won't be as long as yours was, only 14-15 hours.

Got to get back to my kids at school. Hope your doing well and keeping your spirits up!

Take care,

Sarah