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I'm new to this board, and was seeking out some type of support, and am a little unsure where to start. First, God bless you all in your own efforts and the best of luck to each of you. I strongly feel anyone who wants a baby so badly as to seek support and comfort should be given such a blessing, especially when so many others (sorry for the generalization) just don't know what an amazing gift they've been given.
My wife and I have only been trying for 2 1/2 years, so I apologize to those of you who have been trying longer. These 2 1/2 years have felt like an eternity, since my wife and I met while working as volunteers for youth organizations. We both knew we wanted children above almost all else. Now, after 3 miscarriages (the longest being 10 weeks), clomid (which thinned her lining too much), and just finishing a 3 month trial of injectibles and IUI's, I am somewhat crushed. We've noticed that we handle it differently and at different times...she's up, I'm down, I'm up...well, you get the picture. She's such a trooper, as she's started going to a lady that does Reiki, and she's started doing Tai Chi, and she feels "better". I just wonder about this hopeless feeling... I've wanted to be a father as far back as I can remember, and it's such a defining thing. The question keeps coming up, if I'm not that, what am I? I have so much trouble deeling with the resentment and bitterness...I used to love hearing about my coworkers kids, and now, I almost want to run the other way.
I keep wondering what's next...as all of our tests come back excellent...her follicles, progesterone, sperm count, motility...no answers though.
Thank you all for the forum for which I can vent these feelings, and again, God Bless and good luck to all of you.
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