|
Home
| Home | Help | Search | Login | Register |
Abbreviations |
Author
|
Topic: sad sad sad (Read 1958 times) |
|
Maxsmommy
Jr. Member
 Offline
Posts: 12
Ain't life grand???
View Profile | |
|
Hi Ladies,
I have been keeping up with this thread even though I do not often post! Congratulations ZoeCalifornia and Lady Bug! I also am on my 2WW and my beta is on the 20th....ZoeCalifornia my last week has been similar to yours...so maybe you both will give the rest of us some baby dust 
Judea
Quote from: ZoeCalifornia on 02/14/07, 17:51
Hi, Chris! Yes, one of the symptoms of that stinking progesterone IS that if staves off AF. My first IVF I had my first HcG level (11dp5dt) at 41. Nurses shook their heads sadly, but told me to come back in 4 days. It went to 150. It kept climbing to 1600, but it was an empty sac. But, my point is that the whole time I was carrying a "nothing" I was on progesterone shots and they staved off AF. Doctor said that if I hadn't had the PG shots, AF would have "taken care of business" and I would never have had the sac grow.
And to prove that, just as soon as I went off the shots, the next day AF came (and with a vengeance. 2 weeks!!) My lining was at 11, so there was a lot of stuff to get rid of, I guess.
By the way, I've gotten my blood test back today and I have a BFP with HcG levels of 129. Woot! We're cautiously excited since that's only "Hurdle 12" of 15 total hurdles (we've counted) till the second trimester when I think we can finally "breathe" for once since day one of IVF.
|
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Hi girls,
Thanks Judea! I'm wishing you and everyone all the baby dust in the world! I wish that none of us had to go through this and that having a baby was easy for us all. One thing that I have been trying to tell myself is that the best things in life are worth waiting for. That we appreciate the things we work hardest for. This is true in my life...I had to work so hard to get my degree in school and you know I was more grateful just because I had to work so hard to get it. Now I know this is different then having a baby...but it makes me feel a little better
I called my re again today and begged them to let me come in early to do another blood test. I was suppose to go in on monday and now I'm going for blood test tomorrow morning. There is only one other time in my life that I have ever felt this scared and I'll spare you all the devastating details of that experience.
I called the re because when I woke up today it seems that all the tenderness in my bbs is completely gone. The little white dots on my bbs are fading away and they are not nearnly as full as they were.
I need to see my HCG nummber doulbe and I swear I could stop freaking out and be happy....until then my life is on hold. Do you guys think I'm crazy for calling my re and pleading with them to get me in sooner? I'm so scared!! Part of me just wanted to hold on until monday and just be in my little bubble and be happy...the other part of me (the part that is winning) is far to scared to be happy! Help anyone??? Is there anyone out there that understands???
When I called my re the nurse told me not to worry. She said that sometimes women go through their whole pregnancy without feeling any symtoms. What I don't understand however is how it could start off with soreness and now ...now there is almost nothing. Is that normal??
Am I driving you guys crazy? I desperately need a friend! Anyone out there??
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
Maxsmommy
Jr. Member
Offline
Posts: 12
Ain't life grand???
View Profile | |
|
Tracy, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I know what that feeling is like, sort of a driving feeling that you just cannot let go of. You are honoring your feelings and for that reason alone, I think it is good that you called to make that appointment. Unless you are living it, the cycle of emotions/stress/hope/fear are not easily understood. I hope you get through the evening okay and may those numbers double/triple/quadruple
Best of luck and I'll check back to see how it goes,
Judea
Quote from: Ladybug on 02/16/07, 18:20
Hi girls,
Thanks Judea! I'm wishing you and everyone all the baby dust in the world! I wish that none of us had to go through this and that having a baby was easy for us all. One thing that I have been trying to tell myself is that the best things in life are worth waiting for. That we appreciate the things we work hardest for. This is true in my life...I had to work so hard to get my degree in school and you know I was more grateful just because I had to work so hard to get it. Now I know this is different then having a baby...but it makes me feel a little better
I called my re again today and begged them to let me come in early to do another blood test. I was suppose to go in on monday and now I'm going for blood test tomorrow morning. There is only one other time in my life that I have ever felt this scared and I'll spare you all the devastating details of that experience.
I called the re because when I woke up today it seems that all the tenderness in my bbs is completely gone. The little white dots on my bbs are fading away and they are not nearnly as full as they were.
I need to see my HCG nummber doulbe and I swear I could stop freaking out and be happy....until then my life is on hold. Do you guys think I'm crazy for calling my re and pleading with them to get me in sooner? I'm so scared!! Part of me just wanted to hold on until monday and just be in my little bubble and be happy...the other part of me (the part that is winning) is far to scared to be happy! Help anyone??? Is there anyone out there that understands???
When I called my re the nurse told me not to worry. She said that sometimes women go through their whole pregnancy without feeling any symtoms. What I don't understand however is how it could start off with soreness and now ...now there is almost nothing. Is that normal??
Am I driving you guys crazy? I desperately need a friend! Anyone out there??
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Judea,
Thank you!! I feel alone. Like I'm in a black hole and reading your note gives me a little light....thank you. I know there is nothing that will make me feel better until I see the # double but its does help to know people care. Thank you
I work nights so it will help me pass some time. I'll post my # as soon as I get them. My app is at 7:30am and they will call about 2 hours from then...the worst 2 hours ever!! Wish there was a 2 hour wait room LOL
again thank you
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
Maxsmommy
Jr. Member
Offline
Posts: 12
Ain't life grand???
View Profile | |
|
Hi Tracy,
I wanted to mention another website that I post on and there is a ton of various forums...it is called fertilethoughts.com and I have found comfort in both of these sites. I'll say a prayer for you tonight
Judea
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Thank you for your payer Judea. I think it worked! I have a HCG of 248 now. I feel much better although I can't say that I have stopped worrying. My bbs are still not sore. I must say that I am tired!!! Also I have constipation, some mild cramps on and off all day (much less then they were), a mild backache, and it feels like I'm hungy all the time! I'm still running to the bathroom a little more then I normally. I think thats about it. My next step is an u/s on March 2nd. I'm soooooo happy!!
How are you doing Judea? Any other good news out there?
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
VTB
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 27
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Hi Everyone,
I've been following this post, although I haven't posted as I wasn't sure if it was the right post for me. I just wanted to stop in and say Congrats to everyone with BFP and to those who are still waiting, I'm right with you there. I am on the last week of my 2ww, and I am completely crazy worrying about every little thing that I feel - could this be the time that I am pregnant!
This is my first IUI, so of course - I have a great hope that it will work right away, but then a part of me is thinking, it never works on the first try.
Ladybug, your posts give me soo much hope. I feel so much like you in every way you feel. I am soo happy for you. I will keep you all posted!
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
VTB,
Thank you VTB. I understand how you feel in wanting the IUI to work the first time. I also had high hopes and was extremely disapointed when it failed! I could be wrong but from my understanding IUI can work on the first try but more often women have to try a few more times to get the BFP. Hey look at me...now that I have my BFP I really don't care that it took 3 tries. I'm sure this is not what you want to hear, but I honestly think the 2WW was more bearable the 2nd and 3rd try only because you know what to expect and you know not to get your hopes up. I'm sorry your in pain and I wish with all my heart I could take away the 2ww and give you a BFP. Until then don't give up hope. Hold on and reach for the stars and your dreams will come true!
How many days until your tww is over? What type of symptoms are you having if any? Please do keep us posted!
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
MS
Newbie
Offline
Posts: 4
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Hi!
I know exactly how you feel i was so positive and then the old familiar cramps started, everything just the same as PMS. I am heartbroken. It is very sad and you know what even though i am cramping still somewhere inside i still have a flicker of hope! stupid i know. Its liek you set yourself up for disappointment. I do hope and pray that yours turns out to be a liitle bundle of joy! best of luck to you!
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
HI Girls,
Just thought I would let everyone know things are going great .....I'm having twins!!!
|
|
|
|
|
smod
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Congratulations on your pregnancy! Would you kindly tell me How many IVFs you went through? How many eggs did the dr put in that you're now conceived with twins?
|
|
|
|
|
Ladybug
Full Member
Offline
Posts: 41
I'm a llama!
View Profile | |
|
Smod,
Thank you. This was my 3rd IUI. I had 2 failed IUI's. One with colmid and one with Gonal-f. This third IUI was a charm. We used Gonal-f again but this time we waited a little longer and let the eggs mature longer. I hope this helps.
Tracy
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
| Shared Journey Community | Powered by Yabbse |
|
|
|
|
Shared Journey Community
Logged