I really don't mind driving (actually riding) it really isn't that bad and I enjoy it believe it or not. The trip down was great it was on the way back that was so rough and that was bcuz af wasn't very nice to me. I always enjoy doing road trips, I like it more when it is me and my dh cause it's great one on one time which I don't get often.
I agree I can't wait to get preg and I wont have to worry about af, also when you nurse you don't get af. I would die if I was one of those people who gets it during preg and nursing.
That it is awesome that your dad is giving you a nitrogen tank and that you will be saving $$$$ every lil bit counts right?
Everything is going pretty good I am just trying to keep my head up and take it one day at a time. I know that one day hopefully soon that I will get my bfp. It is all in God's hands and I know that he will take care of me.
I have been working at the gym for 3 1/2 yrs. I work in the childcare room and I work in the cafe. It really is a great gym and it's nice because I get a free membership and try to use it as much as possible. I work out only 3 days a wk, but I try to make it count. I work out w/ a friend on tues and take a hip hop class, on fri mornings I take a a strength class (let me tell you that trainer will kick your butt) and fri nights after I am done working I go do some cardio and maybe some weights and on sat mornings a take a pilates class I love that class it is such a great work out and sooo relaxing at the same time.
Speaking of the gym I have to go and get ready I have to be there at 3:00 I have to leave in like 30min and the weather isn't so great we had snow this am then freezing rain and now we have rain and then tonight who knows what it will be I think it will be snow again.
I know how much it means to get the bfp. I am praying that you get it soon, that everyone trying will get the bfp. I know if you have faith in the Lord that things will open up. Its just the waiting thats the hard part.
My Dh and I are driving to CA in may and hopefully I'll be pregnant by then. His sister is having a baby and a baptism at the same time and we are visiting. The drive won't be as long as yours was, only 14-15 hours.
Got to get back to my kids at school. Hope your doing well and keeping your spirits up!
Thank you very much and I will be praying that you also get that bfp The waiting is very hard, but I just have to be patient, whatever is meant to happen will happen.
So when do you go to CA? That would be awesome if you are preg, I'll keep my fingers crossed. Sarah, just keep your head up and stay strong.
Got to go get some thnings done before I go babysit for the day.
Thanks so much for your support. I know that your moving in the right direction. I hope our patience pays off in the end with a beatiful baby!
Yesterday my DH and I bought five vials of the donor. We are going to IUI in April around the 26th depending on cycle. Then we go to Cali on May 9 which would be two weeks or almost that time. Either I'll go pregnant or go with af. If it is af i'm glad we'll be going somewhere and I won't just sit around crying. But I'm so positive this time and just happy we know what we're doing. I hope we have beginners luck.
How is everything? Are you doing anything different this month? I hope whatever you decide will work for you. I know that you'll get that bfp.
I will keep you in my prayers and hope that this will be your time to shine, just keep your head up and don't let it get you down if it doesn't.
This month has been a lil tight on $$$ just got alot of bills and other crap, it sucks when you grow up and you have to be responsible, you know? We are hopefully going to order ovulex this week and if not it will be 2 more weeks. My dh and I get paid every 2wks from the gym, so some times it gets kind of tight, you know? It makes it nice that I babysit on the side so I get cash 3 days a week. I can't wait for spring when my dh starts back up w/ his landscaping business and we get more $$$ coming in. This will be his 2nd year doing his own business and it has been real good so far. Last year he did alot more work than he thought he was going to get for his 1st yr So this year I really hope that he does even better, so far it looks like it wil be a good year. You can go and check out some of his work on line - landscapesbysteve.com- you will see some of the work he did at the club we work at. I took alot of those pics that you will see, the pics of the 2 flowers on the opening pg I took also the one to the right I love. I love doing photography it makes me happy, you should see how many photos I have and the ones of my nieces every time I see them I take pics, I think I have more of them than my sister-in-law
Well anyways now that I went off on my rabbit trail, I am so sorry. I will let you know when we get ovulex and in the mean time we will keep practicing and who knows maybe it will be this month and I wont need anything, but not to sound negative I don't think it will be that easy.
Well I am gonna go now and will talk to you later, take care hun
Kim
My dh is still having his website worked on, but you get to see some stuff.
I know what you mean about growing up. I hate bills. Especially because you want to start now to get your bfp. Its hard waiting. We have to wait one more month because we have to pay insurance for the year.
I hope ovulex works if this months a bust. I try not to get too excited or else its so disapointing to get the negative. But you never now whats going to happen.
I haven't looked at the website yet for your husband but thats awesome if his business works out for you. I am already starting to worry about what how we will make it on one income. We both want me to stay at home for at least one year or nine months. If I could stay home for ever that would be great but its hard with how pricey living is and cost of home. Everything has doubled here.
I'm praying for you and never give up, always have faith that its going to happen.
Sorry that I am just getting back to you it has been a busy and quick weekend. It went by so quickly and this is the first time I have had to sit down and have time to myself.
Last night my brother had a seizure, it was so scary :'( he has never had one before and I'd never seen someone have one, but I think it makes it harder when it's someone you really love. He is better now and they have him on seizure meds until they get test results back. It was just along night and I pray that it doesn't happen again.
I think bills SUCK I swear they call each other up and plan to have the bills arrive all at once, thats what happened ths month.
We didn't order ovulex this weekend, to be honest it didn't cross my mind. Like I said earlier it has been a busy weekend. If we don't order it in the next couple of days we will wait 2wks when we get paid.
I want to stay home when we have kids and so does my husband. I have always been the type to stay home and to be a stay at home mom. I probably will keep working at the health club so I can keep the free membership and I do like working there, well most of the time. No matter what I will be staying home, I know that $$$ can be tight ; but we basically live on one income now and I know that God will provide
Let me know what you think of his website and his work I really hope he has a good yr. He is starting some new services like fertilization and the christmas lighting. Maybe thats why we haven't gotten preg. yet because maybe God is getting us ready, who knows only He does.
That really stinks that you have to wait another month I hope that things will happen soon. I know it has to be a pain to wait another month people don't think thats like no big deal, but when you want it so bad every sec counts.
Do you live near Nampa? That is where my best friend lives they have been there for about a month now, I think. All I know is that it feels like it has been forever and I hope that they will move back to NH soon, Lord willing.
So sorry I haven't written in awhile. I was busy with some classes and homework and didn't even know how long it had been.
I was able to see your website and think its great. I live in rural Idaho and when I thought of landscaping it was just mowing a lawn and planting trees or flowers. I didn't even think of stones and bricks. Not many people would have that here. Our town is growing though and people are starting to get things like that. Mostly everyone has horses and cows so its not important for your yard to look great. Also a lot of people have broken down vehicles or just junk all over the place.
I don't live near Nampa. That is closer to the western side near Boise I think. I live in the south eastern half in a town near Rexburg. If your know where Jackson Hole, WY is we live only 1 1/2 hours away. From our front door we can see the Tetons. Its really pretty here and my dh and I ride horses and rodeo in the summer.
Hope this next month will work for you. Wouldn't it be great if we both got pregnant in April! I will be praying for you.
I am glad you got to see his website and that you like it. My dh does such a good job at landscaping he really enjoys it. I think he has been doing landscaping for about 5yrs now and he has learned alot and I think he does a GREAT job. I can't wait till we have our own place (we rent) and he can landscape it.
Here in NH landscaping is huge. Pepole spend $$$$$ on it you wouldn't beileve how much. People really take pride in the yards. In Bedford (which is the rich area) that is where you find alot of the big houses and the real nice landscaping, that is where Steve tries to get his business from.
Is it like alot of country and mnts? What is your winters like? I don't know anything about ID. Nampa is near boise, I do know that only because my friend said she took her boys to barnes and nobles in Boise. We use to go there every Sun night after church, when they lived here. I really miss them Do you have your own horses? I haven't been on a horse in a long time, I want to go somewhere and go ride horses, I don't know if there is a place to go and do that. I really don't think thats my dh's thing, but I think he would do it anyway. I hopefully will be able to go visit ID sometime if my friend doesn't move back, I always wanted to go out west I bet it is real pretty. I love NH it is a very pretty state if you ever get a chance you should come see it. It is nice because I am only 45min from Boston, 45 min from the beach and 45 min from the mountains, it is really nice. I love Boston, GO RED SOX
That would be real nice and pretty cool if we both got pregnant around the same time, I hope that it would be as soon as April. I guess we wil have to see. I will also keep you in my prayers.
Thanks for the all the support. It is nice to know that someone is going through some of the same feelings. Today, someone asked me if I liked kids. I said yes and then they asked why don't I have any then? I told them we can't afford it now and they went off about how they know where I and my dh work and that we should have plenty of money. I told them that our babies would cost a lot because we have to do a different procedure. Then he said that if it doesn't work naturally, then maybe God doesn't want you to have children. I was so mad. I told him that a lot of people have babies that mistreat them or even worse things but God didn't stop those people. It makes me so mad at some of the people here that I know if they had infertility issues they would be doing the same as me. Its hard to explain what its like. He then felt bad for saying it and said he had just been joking. I hate it when people joke like that.
Anyway, sorry about the rambling. My af showed up last night and I'm always really sensitive when it happens and think everyones awful. I really have bad pms and pretty much stay the same until my af is gone.
Where we live in ID you can see mtns and things like that. Our town is located in the snake river basin. Pretty much potato farms everywhere. We're only about 4000 ft elevation here though. We are forty minutes away from Yellowstone. My dh and I go there every year. Also, I go there with the kids for a field trip in the spring. We usually see baby animals then. Its so pretty there.
ID is a great place to live and if you have the chance you should see it. Dh and I have four horses and we ride a lot. He competes in ropings or rodeos all summer long. I don't like to rope that much. I was taught and I'm ok at it but I hate the pressure of doing it super fast. Dh and I are both cowboys. Both of us were raised on horses and did 4-H until we were 18. We met at college in a roping class on campus. We were Animal Science majors and loved horses. So they are a big part of our lives.
Sorry about how long, Thanks for everything and I'm hoping that we both get our bfps soon.
You are so very welcome, that is what I am here for and I can give you the same thanks. It is nice that there is someone out there that can relate how you feel, it's nice to know that your not alone. I am so sorry for what that guy said to you some people just don't have a clue, even if it is meant to be harmless; they should just keep their remarks to themselves!!! I think you shoud do what you feel is right, you should pray about it and seek God's will. I know someone who tried to conceive for 12yrs. there was nothing wrong w/ her or her dh they just couldn't get preg. She tried natural drugs, but didn't do anything else, she felt that it wasn't God's will, none of the natural things she did worked. She prayed and said ok God you are the one who can close and open the womb what is your will? Her and dh prayed and seeked God's will and they decided to adobt. They got into being foster parents and they got a 2mth old boy for their 1st foster kid. About 1yr and a half later and they just finalized their adoption for that lil boy What are the chances that the 1st kid they get in their home is the child they get to adobt? I'll tell you why, it was because that was God's will fot them, they seeked Him and he provided. She told me she couldn't be anymore happier and she wouldn't change a thing. When she told me her story it gave me so much peace. Right now I don't know God's will is for us I still feel that we are meant to have kids, but when? I don't know. I just have to take it one day at a time and see what He has instore for me. I hope that her story gives you the same peace as it did for me. Everyone is different and God is the one in control. My mom met someone that tried to get preg for like 5yrs and couldn't, now God has blessed them w/ 8 kids (wow) My mom told me that story the same day I heard the other story. Two different women, two different stories, but both women same problems and both got their children, so you never know. Keep your head and don't let people get you down, it will happen
I hate when af shows up obviously I don't like it because we are trying to conceive and it is disapointing when she comes, plus I also have had some pretty bad ones and I get scared that it will be bad again and my problems will come back.
Thats sounds so pretty where you live I heard that the mnts are beautiful there. I have always wanted to go Yellowstone, maybe one day I'll get the chance. You are so lucky that you have the oppurtunity to see such a beautiful place. I love animals so it must be neat to see them also in the spring. I love nature it is amazing what God has created.
I really do hope i get the chance to visit so I can see the beauty of ID the same for you if you get a chance to see NH you should fall is BEAUTIFUL here that is probably the best time to come. I am so jealous that you have 4 horses I want to ride horses so bad like I said before I haven't been on one in a long time. I think it is such a peaceful thing to ride a horse they are such beautiful animals. I think that is neat how you and your dh do those things and were in 4-h. When I lived in FL that was very big (4h) You guys seem like a very neat couple.
Well I am gonna go and get some dishes done before bed. I really do hope also that we get our bfp soon. One day at a time right? I'll talk to you later.
Thank you and hope that everything is going great for you too. I don't have much time to be in front of computer. We are having really nice weather and I'm outside as much as I can. I have really bad spring fever. It seems that winter has been so long here. It will probably start raining or even snow again but its nice now. Our weather is never predictable. Anyway hope your spring is there so your dh can start working.
Those stories are really inspirational. Have you read Unsung Lullibies? I don't know if thats how you spell it. Its about all the emotional trauma and how best to cope with it. Its a really great book. I learned a lot about my emotions and even how my dh is feeling. It also has good stories of people that beat the odds and finally get pregnant. I use to go to adoption classes and someone gave it to me. Dh and I wanted to adopt but felt that we needed to try this way first. I know that God will help the faithful and sometimes when your doing all you can you just have to leave the rest to Him.
I know how you feel about spring fever, we really haven't had a bad winter it has been more unpredictable. Winter has been so weird we really haven't had much snow and we have had some pretty cold days even an ice storm. We were teased a lil bit last Tues and Wed the temps were in like the 60's-70's I got to wear flip-flops and then on Fri we got like 12in of snow. We have a saying here in NH if you don't like the weather wait a min. it is so true new england is so unpredictable you never know what it is going to do. Our 2 big storms we had it was on valentines and St. Patricks day. So I can relate to you about how unpredictable your weather can be My dh wasn't to happy about the snow he is ready to landscape, but we are suppose to get some really nice weather so hopefully he will be able to get going soon, but we never know because we are in N.E.
I am gald that you thought those stories were inspirational and I hope they also are to whoever else will read them. I will go check out that book too. So you guys are willing to do adoption, but first go this route, I think that is good that you have an open mind. I would have no problem adopting, I just would like to adopt a newborn or young baby. If I can't have a baby of my own, then I want to adopt one. I know that, that probably sounds selfish, but that is just how I feel. Just stay strong and trust in God and rely on Him to take care of you. God doesn't make mistakes He knows what He is doing, as hard as it is to see what His plan is; you just need to trust Him.
Have a great day and I will talk to you later. I hope you have some great weather and spring soon.
Thanks so much for the support. Its been so beatiful here and I can't wait for summer. The only thing that sucks is its so windy here. Its always blowing and I hate that.
Dh and I are having our vials shipped next thursday. I'm tempted to try to get this next cycle but it would be better financially to wait at least one more cycle for us. Just because of work and going to school. I don't want to have baby during finals week. But it would be so perfect for this cycle because it would be a christmas baby.
Have you thought of baby names yet? Dh and I have ours picked out already. Ruby if a girl and Shane or Oliver for a boy. People are already giving us baby stuff and I'm so excited for it.
Hope you are doing great and keeping your hopes up.
I can't wait for spring I am not a summer person I don't like the heat. I use to live in FL for 15yrs and I hated the heat!!! I rather be cold than hot. My thoughts are when you are hot there is so much you can take off, but when you are cold you can just add layers until you are warm. I don't like to sweat unless it is a reason, like working out or working outside I am just a true new englander I guess. Summer isn't so bad here only 2-3wks it is pretty hot like FL and I'll take that over almost year around in FL. I really like spring and fall is my favorite it is so beautiful here especially when we get good folliage.
Thats exciting that you are getting your vials soon and that hopefully all will go well and you will get preg. It will happen when it is suppose to happen, it is all in God's timing. Just keep your head up and stay strong.
My dh and I have 2 boy names and 2 girl names that we like. I would love to have 4 kids, maybe even 6 (God willing) so I have 2 names for each and if I don't have 2 of each or we have 6 kids, then well we will have to cross that bridge when we get to it We just need to get 1 and then go on from there. My dh's name is Merton Steven, so is his dad, g-pa and like 2 more after that. The middle name isn't the same just the 1st, so if we have a 1st born boy we will name it Merton Christopher. I have always liked the name Michael Christopher, but I compromised and anyways that was my ex-boyfriend's name ( no thats not why I liked it I have always liked that name before I knew my ex lol ) The other boy name Is Jonathan Ryan and the weird thing is about that name is that it was my ex's brothers name ( I also had that name before I knew them ) I thought that was so strange when we were dating and he told me their names I was like are you serious those are my favorite names ( I was like 15 @ the time ) Ok so the girl names this might sound weird and I am still on the fence just because it is so different and people might have a hard time w/ it. I made this name up when I was like 13/14 and it has always stuck and my mom and dh both like it, which is a good thing. Ok here it goes Kaidias Marie ( sounds like KDS, which were my initals before I got married ) I said my initals one time fast and said hey I kinda like it and it stuck. What do you think? You are a teacher right? I want a teacher's pperspective you can be honest I wont mind. Anyways on to the last name I like the name Seanna Renae once again it might get said the wrong way because there is 2 different ways to say it ( "Sea"anna like the ocean or "Sean"na which is the way I think we will do ) I like it both ways though so I am always back and forth I think they are both pretty. Once again what do you think? Be glad you have nice easy names The reason why I have such a problems is that I don't want my kid to hate their name or always have issues cause people wont say it right or ask them how to spell it. What would you do? I am not even preg and I am already thinking and worring about this stuff (sad) I bet you are sorry that you asked me that question about names huh? LOL SORRY!!!!! I am so pathetic I even have my birthing plan all planned out how I want it. I think about that all the time how I want everything to be, am I weird?
Anyways I am gonna let you go sorry for going on forever, if you don't know I love to talk I have a gift for gab LOL I am gonna get ready for bed talk to you later, hun.
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Do you have your own horses? I haven't been on a horse in a long time, I want to go somewhere and go ride horses, I don't know if there is a place to go and do that. I really don't think thats my dh's thing, but I think he would do it anyway. I hopefully will be able to go visit ID sometime if my friend doesn't move back, I always wanted to go out west I bet it is real pretty. I love NH it is a very pretty state if you ever get a chance you should come see it. It is nice because I am only 45min from Boston, 45 min from the beach and 45 min from the mountains, it is really nice. I love Boston, GO RED SOX 