Hi girls, This site has really gotten pretty busy downstairs, without much action going on up here. I am happy for the girls....don't get me wrong, but it leaves a few of us up here twiddling our thumbs... wondering if it is ever going to happen for us. There are a few of us up here that suffer years of constant disappointment. There's a party going on down there and we can't participate! All the pregnancies around here have me feeling a little down. It always happens for everyone else. I can't help but to feel hopeless. (and a little envious too I suppose) I know it's hard on all of us that are still walking this long, wretched journey.
So I was wondering... who of us on here have had terrible luck with infertility treatments? How are you all holding up? Are you angry? Frustrated? Ready to give up? Do you cry everytime you see a pregnant woman in the grocery store or find out a friend is pregnant? Do you cry everyday? Have you lost friends over infertilty? Do you truly feel that you will never achieve your ultimate goal? Let's get the support and stories going again up here ladies!
38 yrs. DH is 31 yrs. Married November 2002. No children. TTC since the honeymoon. Infertility treatments 2 yrs. 7 failed IUIs. 3 cancelled IVFs due to poor response to meds. Poor ovarian reserve. DH has male factors. Chicago, IL Presently looking into adoption!
I agree with you. We need some still stuggling stories and sharing going on. There are lots of successes, which is great...so happy for all of them! It's hard every day for me. Harder now that I'm looking at the real possibility that it wont work for me. I'm sorry for you too and all of the women still struggling. I hope they will post here too.
36 years old. Married for 17 years. 1 son, 7 years old, conceived w/ ICSI. 2nd IVF w/ ICSI in June=No Fertilization. August cycle cancelled for poor response. Considering options.
I am still here as well. I am so sorry that you are feeling so down lately and my thoughts are with you. You go right ahead and feel the way you do, this infertility stuff is ugly!! I am very excited for all the girls downstairs and I use it as inspiration to keep going on.
It is getting very hard for me to deal with all of this as well. Last two months I have been so angry and depressed through the whole process. This month we are being "forced" to take a month off due to 3 ruptured cysts and they won't allow us to start injections until I am cysts free. But with the pain that I was in last week, I completely agree!
Here is hoping for good luck our way..............
Forty Four years old, hubby is 52 married 4 years, TTC 4 years with this hubby, 14 years with first hubby, One adopted daughter, 2nd ivf done, 1st one pg with m/c, second no pg. Uses egg Donor. PG with twins on 3rd IVF mc twins on 8/25/05
I know how feel. It does totally suck. It's great to hear success stories but it would be even greater if it was your own. It gets harder and harder with each passing month to be positive. Sometimes it just seems like it takes too much energy to think it may happen to you. The only thing we can do is hope. I hope that you get that baby that you want and I hope I get one too. The one thing that helps is knowing we have a wonderful support system like this in times of need. Good luck.
I too feel sad about not succeeding at this. I suppose that is why I am in no rush to log into the sight anymore. I am happy for the ladies downstairs, I really am coz I know what it's like to be in the game. But I find myself asking why I can't have the same happiness. Last week a good friend phoned to say she's having a girl... I am sinking in and out of depression about this whole situation. One time I'm okay and think I can handle everything and next I'm total emotional wreck. I really pity my husband, he sees all of this first hand.
35 yrs. Married 3years. BFP on 25/04/2005. ~~AngelBaby 6 May 2005~~. D&C and Laparoscopy: stage 2 Endometriosis 12/05/2005. BFP 29 June = Blighted Ovum - d&c August 2005. Conceived 11 March 2006 and had beautiful and healthly BabyGirl at 33wks on 10/10/06.
I'm so depressed I can't really be happy for anyone. I mean I don't wish them any ill-will, heavens no, its just that I am so damn jealous and so damn mad right now.
This whole process is frustrating and I can't even describe the range of emotions - "rollercoaster" doesn't do it justice. I've never been so depressed in all my life. And I know that state of mind is not a good place to be right now.
I got a BFP on Friday and I was ecstatic. I figured, there's nothing wrong with either of us, we've been trying for a whole year now, and FINALLY!! What could go wrong now?
Well, my betas are rising, but they are very low and not doubling. They told me to expect bleeding at any time.
37, unexplained infertility (no M or F factors), TTC for 1 yr, 3 failed cycles of Clomid 50 mg + IUI, 2 failed cycles of 5 mg Femara + Gonal-f + IUI, having extreme difficulty coping, esp. with all the blissfully new moms around me
I am so sorry for that elation turned sadness. I hope it all works out...I have heard so many stories of the same low and/or not doubling betas, only to end up working out just fine. I will pray for you.
36 years old. Married for 17 years. 1 son, 7 years old, conceived w/ ICSI. 2nd IVF w/ ICSI in June=No Fertilization. August cycle cancelled for poor response. Considering options.
Silli Kitti, I am so sorry about your levels. I will say prayers for you also. I wish things were different for you
I can certainly understand the depression part of all this. I haven't been myself now for a year and a half. This has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. My friends and family don't really understand either. They just keep saying... Oh well, there is always adoption!
38 yrs. DH is 31 yrs. Married November 2002. No children. TTC since the honeymoon. Infertility treatments 2 yrs. 7 failed IUIs. 3 cancelled IVFs due to poor response to meds. Poor ovarian reserve. DH has male factors. Chicago, IL Presently looking into adoption!
Silli-Kitti My heart just breaks for you. I know what you're going thru, late July I experienced the same thing. Wishing you all the strength and sanity you need to go through this.
35 yrs. Married 3years. BFP on 25/04/2005. ~~AngelBaby 6 May 2005~~. D&C and Laparoscopy: stage 2 Endometriosis 12/05/2005. BFP 29 June = Blighted Ovum - d&c August 2005. Conceived 11 March 2006 and had beautiful and healthly BabyGirl at 33wks on 10/10/06.
Silli Kitti -- I am so sorry about the beta levels. The same thing happened to me on my first baby. They didnt double the first 3 times. Can you let us know the exact numbers? Sorry just the nurse in me.
Forty Four years old, hubby is 52 married 4 years, TTC 4 years with this hubby, 14 years with first hubby, One adopted daughter, 2nd ivf done, 1st one pg with m/c, second no pg. Uses egg Donor. PG with twins on 3rd IVF mc twins on 8/25/05
I'm to go get rechecked every other day until they tell me otherwise, but they don't expect it to proceed normally.
I hate this waiting pattern. I keep thinking, I could have been on cd4 of a new cycle right now, instead I have to wait.........most likely for nothing.
Thanks all for your love. I'm really down right now!
37, unexplained infertility (no M or F factors), TTC for 1 yr, 3 failed cycles of Clomid 50 mg + IUI, 2 failed cycles of 5 mg Femara + Gonal-f + IUI, having extreme difficulty coping, esp. with all the blissfully new moms around me
Silli Kitti, I am so sorry hun. I can't imagine what you are going through. It's what we all fear most about this whole process. I will still keep my fingers crossed that maybe things will be just fine. Keep us posted.
38 yrs. DH is 31 yrs. Married November 2002. No children. TTC since the honeymoon. Infertility treatments 2 yrs. 7 failed IUIs. 3 cancelled IVFs due to poor response to meds. Poor ovarian reserve. DH has male factors. Chicago, IL Presently looking into adoption!
Thank you for sharing the numbers. With my first baby my numbers were 58 ist one, 73 second and 121 the third. I am still hoping that this will be ok. If not- the only positive is is that you can get pg and that maybe next time it will be a viable embryo. (thats what i told myself anyway) Keep in touch. My prayers are with you.
Forty Four years old, hubby is 52 married 4 years, TTC 4 years with this hubby, 14 years with first hubby, One adopted daughter, 2nd ivf done, 1st one pg with m/c, second no pg. Uses egg Donor. PG with twins on 3rd IVF mc twins on 8/25/05
I guess I am here to vent. I am just starting on the road to infertility so to speak. Actually getting pregnant is the easy part for me it's keeping the pregnancy after implantation that is giving me massive problems. Plus I am in a remote part of maine where there aren't very many resources for info in this matter and the docs up here seem to be oblivious to treatment of infertility I usually have to suggest another treatment !
I have suffered the emotional and physical agonizing pain of 9 miscarriages and 2 ectopics in the last 5 years. It has been a roller coaster ride from hell. I know -IF- I finally become successful in a pregnancy I will be in labor before I even believe it's happening and I am finally there.
I feel so excited to see all my friends having babies but I am screaming inside saying why me? And Unfortunately most of my friends and family don't even tell me anymore when someone is pregnant because they hate letting me down and they know I will go home and cry.
Any advice for this journey I am about to embark on would be great because I am so alone.
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