Anyone else have these feelings???
101197 - May 18th, 2006 10:53 AM
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Dh and I have been TTC for 4 years now. I have PCOS and taking Metformin, which does not seem to help. I just ordered Ovulex and will start next week. DH refuses any IUI or IVF. We've had some heated discussions about it and he will not budge. What is killing me is within the last month I have found out that ALL of my close friends are PG!!! I want to be happy for them but I cant help but feel despressed for myself. I am angry that its not happening for us and I cant help but wonder why I am being punished? I know that things happen for a reason and there is a time for everything I jsut dont understand why tis not our time?

Who else is having this horrible feeling????? Need lots of support!

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heather k - May 18th, 2006 2:01 PM

I know exactly how you feel. I have had 5 misc. I see all my friends get preg and have there babies and time just keeps passing me by. I always think "Why isn't God answering my prayers" Someone told me recently that maybe he is, its just not the answer that I want. That was really hard to swallow but maybe they are right. I know I am not giving in easily though! The way I figure it I will know when I am ready to give up. I have a friend whos daughter just found out she was preg and she is only like 18, not married, and still living at home. She is due the same time I was to be due. I feel horrible for feeling the jealousy I feel towards her but it is really hard not to sometimes!! Im glad that I am not the only one who feels this way. Lord give us strength!!! Best of luck to you and your husband and me and mine too!!!

heather


Lynne - May 18th, 2006 6:13 PM

I think we all go through feelings of jealousy, and sometimes out right anger when we see "everyone else" having babies and it is so hard for us. Always remember that you are not alone, that's what these boards are for, you will find someone here that has a similar story, and with this kind of support we will survive this rollercoaster ride. Baby dreams to us all.


hbrotlvr - May 19th, 2006 12:07 PM

I know exactly how ya feel!!! TTC for about 5 years without luck. Currently at work there are 4 people pg on my floor. I get the, "Hey, maybe if ya rub her belly..." If it was only that easy!!!
Currently doing my first ivf. I'm stressed whether it will work. But I just keep thinking to myself, things happen for reason. As hard as it is going through all this stuff right now, in the grand scheme of things there is a reason behind it. We may not understand it at this point, but hopefully at some point we will. If I don't get pg, I just keep thinking there is some other thing in my life i'm suppose to do. That's what keeps me going, and trying to stay positive. Do I want a child??? With all my heart!!! But, it's not up to me, it's not in my hands.
Heather B.


SHELLY - May 19th, 2006 1:49 PM

HI ALL! JUST FOUND THIS FORUM AND SO HAPPY ABOUT IT !!!! I HAVE FELT SO ALONE. TTC FOR 4 YEARS BUT HAVENT BEEN ON BIRTH CONTROL FOR 9 YEARS....
I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE KNOWN SO MANY LADIES TO BE PG !!!! YOUNG AND OLD ALIKE!!! NO LIE I KNOW LIKE 9 LADIES THAT ARE IN MY IMMEDIATE PATH THAT ARE PG AND THAT DOES NOT INCLUDE THE ONES THAT HAVE HAD 2 BABIES SINCE I'VE BEEN TRYING TO CONCEIVE. IT IS TORTURE ! I AM KEEPING THE FAITH AND JUST HAD MY 2ND IUI, I WASTED A LOT OF TIME TRYING ON MY OWN AND THEN WORKING WITH MY GYN/OB. I'M NOW WITH A FERTILITY CLINIC. I AM A CHRISTIAN AND I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU ALL!
THANKS! SHELLY