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Hey Sarah,
We are doing an independent adoption so the only thing we need to do is get a lawyer and have a home study. Yes, she wants to have an open adoption which I am fine w/ that I just think it is weird, because we know each other and evryone would know that I adopted her kid. you know?I know all will work out if it is meant to be. If it'll happen it'll happen. Everyone is telling me once we adopt I am gonna get pregnant and all I say to that is GOOD :) But who knows cause if I have hypothyroidism it will be hard for me to get pregnant. I'll let you know when I get the blood work done.
So you have high functioning thyroid? I hope all will work out and they can get you taken care of. I hope all will go well and just trust God that He will take care of you and he has something planned for you two :) Keep me updated on whats going on with you and I will do the same here for you!
I can't wait my sister-in-law and the girls will be here tomorrow :) I haven't seen the girls since Aug I CAN'T WAIT!!!! :)
Well I am gonna go to bed I have alot to do tomorrow before the girls get here. YEAH!!!! :)
Take Care
Always,
Kim
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Kim,
I am sorry for not logging on for awhile. Between my family and the doctor I haven't had much time on the computer.
After all the testing they did I am insulin resistant and polycystic. Isn't that crazy? Not even my thyroid at all. They don't know why I had high Ca and low PTH because it was just once. Anyway I take Metformin. I think thats how its spelled. I also need hypertension meds until I'm back to normal. I have to treat myself like I'm already diabetic. It won't be too hard when your raised with Type 1 diabetic parent and siblings. It runs in the family and I caught it early.
How is the adoption going? I hope everything is Ok and it works out. Let me know the progress.
Keep strong and I hope you had fun with your family.
Take care
Sarah
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Hey Sarah,
Thats good that your tests went good and that you caught it early. I hope things keep working out for you.
Ok as far as the adoption! We had a meeting w/ the girl and her mom last night, our Pastor was also here. All I can say is that if it is God's will it is going to happen! Steve and I have have a feeling that it wont happen :( The girl's mother seems like she has more say of what goes then the her. Her mom asked all the ?'s while she sat there quiet like a church mouse and had no oppinion. We feel that the girl's mom is gonna make the desicion of what goes then the birth mom and that she has the control not the birth mom. I feel that the birth mom wants to give the baby up for adoption, but when she has the baby the girls mom will want to keep it and help the birth mom in supporting it. The birth mom said she wants a week to say good bye, but the mother says that the birht mom is going to need 2 wks or more. It makes me mad because this women is toying w/ our emotions!!!! She pretty much said there will be no garentee and if we spend all that $$$ and the birth mom does not go through it oh well!!! It seems to us that she takes this like a fun joke and not considering the emotions that we are going through. The girl's mom also said that she hates it when people say "birth mom" and that the ''birth mom'' will always be the ''mom'' and the ''adoptive mom'' will never be the real mom, man did that hurt!!!!! She also said that she will always be the ''grandma'' and no one can replaces that! Can you believe that? Like I said we really feel that push come to shove the "grandma" is going to have the final say. We will just keep praying and asks God's will in this and to keep me strong no matter what happens. I know that it will be His will, but it still makes it hard. I cried alot last night because just the thought of maybe being a parent and then maybe not and how much I want to be a mom!!!! There has been alot going on and this is just one more thing to add on to it. I am sorry that I have been gong on and on. I keep you posted on what it going on.
Take Care
Kim
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Kim,
Sorry I haven't written in awile. My family is in town and my internet hasn't been hooked up. They were supposed to come today but didn't. I hope everything is going OK with you. I think that would be really hard if that girl's mother is always in the way. I read a book called "For the Love of a Child" and it talked about how hard it is for the parents of the girl to give up the baby. That even sometimes they are the ones to talk the girl into a decision that should just be her own. During my adoption classes a birthmom came in and said that three days after she gave up the baby, her mom really wanted it back and tried to get her to take it back. She had to be strong and said that she knew she had made the right decision. Her boyfriend even proposed and she said no because she knew at this time she shouldn't have a baby and he wasn't the right one for her. I know its hard and I am praying that it works out. Never lose hope and keep strong.
Take care,
Sarah
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Hey Sarah,
I am soooo sorry that I haven't been on!!!! The lap top wasn't working right so I haven't been able to get on!
A lot has been happening. We wont be adopting the girl's mom is going to keep it. I can't be mad for that and it's not like she is some crackhead, crazy person she is a real sweet girl and decided to keep it. It just wasn't God's will for us that all. On the other hand the good news is that I got pregnant :) BUT the bad news is I had a miscarriage :( I was only 2wks so I didn't go to the Dr or take a test which makes it easier on me cause I didn't see the positve or was told that I was. The only reason I knew was because of my temps. I LOVE THAT BOOK!!!! I am happy because I know I can get pregnant and then hopefully next time I will be able to carry. I can ONLY give God the glory for my trials because He is the ONLY one that I need to depend on and it makes my walk closerto Him!!!!!!
I have to go and get dinner ready because we have Bible study at our house. Hope to talk to you soon.
Take Care,
Kim
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Kim,
I guess your summer is as busy as mine. I'm sorry about the adoption. It was a good experience if you ever have to do it again.
That is great that your temps stayed high. I am excited for you. What is happening this month? Dh and I are waiting until next af and then we are going to try. It should be around the 8th or the 9th. I'm getting excited because I always think that this is the month.
I hope its going great and you stay strong. I'll be praying for the high temps for the both of us!!
Take care
Sarah
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Sarah,
I'm ok w/ the whole adoption thing it just wasn't meant to be, but your right it was a good experience and now we know what goes on.
Yeah my temps stayed high, but only because I was :'( pregnant. Now that I had the miscarriage my temps are low again (96.8--97.1) You ask what is happening this month? Well TRY, TRY, TRY they say you are real fertile after a miscarriage and I do think that is so true. My c.f. is CRAZY this month. I keep having E.w. clear, stretchy, slippery CF VERY wet. It 's been like this for like 8/9days. So we have been doin the BD like crazy. I did the 15 day trial of the Taking Charge of Your Fertility program for the computer and it is expired and I haven't bought the full version so I haven't really charted. I have been keeping track of everything so when we buy it (hopefully today) I will physically see whats going on. I really hope that this is the the month after having the miscarriage last month it would be nice. The other night it finally hit me that I had a miscarriage and I just lost it :'( I have been going around all happy haven't really let myself process it, so when I went to bed (wanting to try) Steve was 1/2 asleep and wasn't feeling that up to it, thats when it hit me. "Oh my goodness we had one great night in Canada we really weren't that focused on lets do it to try, it was so relaxing and for once I actually concieved and we weren't trying hard." Let me tell you after that thought came to my head I just lost it!!! I couldn't believe I actually was pregnant and if I didn't lose it I woud be pregnant when I went to the family reunion, which going is so hard because they always ask " when are you goin to have kids? " "whats taking so long? " Then I felt the pressure of hurrying up and getting pregnant again because the family reunion is like 3 1/2 weeks away and it needs to happen this cycle. Like I said I seem to be real fertile, but if it don't happen , then I am gonna probably feel real discouraged. It felt soooo good to let it all out the other night I kept it all balled in me and try not to let it get me down, I guess that wasn't good.
Well I will let you go I said enough. LOL :)
Hope all is well and soon you will get the BFP.Keep your head up!!!
Take Care
KIm
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Kim,
I know how you feel about trying to get the next cycle so that you will be preggie for family thing. I really want it to happen this month too because my family is coming in nov and I want to be preg so they don't keep asking. Alex and I are going to try but we're waiting for af to show up. Since I've been taking metformin my periods are light and long. I am over four days late but I know that I'm not preggers because of dh problem. I never thought I couldn't wait for my period before.
The book made me feel better about my body and it also helped me relax. I want to be healthy for my baby so getting over anxious won't help. This last months Concieve magazine had an article about stress that was really good. Some people have stress that is so bad it will make your body give up your baby because its worrying about taking care of you first. Some people aren't like that though. I don't know which one I am, but it doesn't hurt to do meditation, pray or yoga. Or all of those. I know praying really helps me to relax and feel calm.
I need to go, I hope everything is going ok and you keep having high temps.
Good luck
Sarah
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Sarah,
I know exactly what your saying. We have a huge extended family and holidays and celebrations are hard. And every time I turn around, I have a cousin that is pregnant.
Hang in there.
Amy
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I can't seem to start a new thread so I figured I'd try posting a reply in order to ask everyone a question. Has anyone who has gone through fertility treatments that failed gone on to taking matters into their own hands? I've been thinking about buying meds on the internet and then just going through the same protocol I was doing at the fertility clinic. I'm sure I'll get a lot of negative feedback on that, but I'm sure I'm not the first to think of it or try it and if someone else has, did it work? I know my problem is strictly hormonal but visits to the clinics are costing me a fortune. The only thing that I can say I wouldn't get is the ultrasounds to see what my response is. Has anyone else done this too?
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Hi, I'm just hoping to find a cycle buddy for my 1st try at IUI...... anyone out there??
Jackieb: I wouldn't go on it alone- you just have no way of knowing the status of your ovaries and lining. I'm sure it's tempting, but just not a good idea. It's your body, though, so I'm sure you'll make the right decision for yourself. :)
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