Hi Liz --
It was great to be away for awhile -- a major distraction and relaxing to be with Sonny without the normal routine of goodbye in the morning and dinner at night -- but it is nice to be back, too. Except for the laundry and unpacking. That is never good. Are you guys going away at all this summer? Or, understandably, is the house-building going to eat up any and all free time? We're taking short weekend trips (like this weekend we are headed up to Toronto Friday-late Sunday night to visit Sonny's parents -- why am I even bothering to unpack right now? Who knows) because that's what we can afford time-wise and $-wise. Even if you guys do the weekend camping thing again, that helps to re-charge the batteries.
You may have gotten your call by now: hope the estrodiol (sorry my spelling!) is high! With all my reading lately it comforts me to realize that each cycle is different, that we get a renewed chance every month for a healthy ovulation, that LPD doesn't necessarily occur every single cycle. IN other words, even if past cycles weren't great, this one has every chance of being, especially with the medication increase.
Well, interestingly enough, since I have been taking the B-6 and vitamin C, my mood has improved a lot. I'm waiting to see if this just co-incided with the fact that we were on a mini-vacation; we'll see if the better mood remains through the week. I know B vitamins do help improve one's mood...I'm glad you've been feeling better, too. It's amazing how tuned into our hormones we are, how much we are at their mercy, in a way.
Yeah, I know that sometimes too much of a vitamin isn't good. I think that is vitamin E and perhaps C as well. I'm taking 750mg; the vitamins come in 500mg pills, so I take a tablet and a half. It's really not that much, esp. since the dosage they give you starts at 500mg. The study recommended 750mg. I think if you took like 5 pills trying to increase the effect you'd be having a problem. I'm sticking to the rec. dosage and vary it depending on diet (if I have a lot of OJ, for example, I'll take less). I jsut want to feel I'm doing something.
Oh, the forms for the fertility center came while I was away; of course, I filled them out immediately! Just records relating to menstrual/pregnancy history, that kind of stuff. I'm ready to go! Of course, part of me dares to wish that I won't need that appointment; af is due around August 16 (I think) and the appt. is the 25th. Well, I can always hope.
I'm glad Frank is a good support to you; it sounds like he always has been. Yes, he sometimes panics re: $, but that is only normal at times. I wonder if men are really different than us. I mean, I never really subscribed to that "men are from mars" thing; I just figured men think and act like women, with some natural differences. I believe we are equal, so I guess I just translate that into we think equally. Or perhaps it is the men I have been with, who I find intellectually compatible. I don't know. Anyway, there are times where I realize that Sonny just thinks differently -- not better or worse or slower or anything -- just differently. I tend to hold on to stuff, linger over problems, emotions, issues, where Sonny will process it and move on. He doesn't sometimes get it, as you say Frank sometimes doesn't fully get it. I don't think it's a lack of feeling or caring or understanding on their part; it's that they are not exactly wired to get it, if that makes sense. And it's frustrating. I worry about the time that is going by with each month, each cycle; Sonny can't see why I would even worry about that: it will happen when it happens, who cares when (within reason; he wants to have a baby as soon as we can).
What I appreciate is that he tries; he works so hard for us, long hours -- you know what this is like. And he is still able to deal with me!
That's our challenge: to move confidently through this incredibly emotionally and financially stressful journey without feeling stress! It's an almost impossible task. How come we're not those women who conceive without effort, without trying, without even knowing or wanting it! But I can't think about that, wishing for what I can't have. We all do the best with what we have -- and I think we're doing a damn fine job.
So glad to be back for several days before I go off again for the weekend (oh, my jet-setting lifestyle!). I'm happy to be catching up with you, Liz. Take care and keep me posted re: estrodial and life in general.