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Red-I am praying for you. I hope all goes well and you get some great news this afternoon.

JasJulesMom~Thank you so very much for the prayers and support. As I've mentioned to the other ladies, it is extremely appreciated! It's just a difficult time and then to read another posting about how a pregnancy turned out similar to mine is a little disheartening! Anyway, I truly appreciate and value everyone's prayers! Hope you are doing well also.

Red - I know it is hard given the other post to think positive. But, hang in there with us for a little bit. We are praying for a great outcome today. Let us know. I will talk to you later.

Jenny~Once again, thank you for your support! I do appreciate it and definitely need it right now! How's the peanut today? How are you feeling?

I was feelin a little yucky (sick ) this morning. It seems to have gone away. I was sick to my stomach last night when I tried to eat dinner. So I guess since I have asked for it I am getting it now. You are very welcome. I just want you to know that in your time of need that you have friends on here that will help you through no matter what the outcome. I am just trying to keep you preoccupied while we await the results of this test. How are you feeling today? Besides sick to your stomach because of your nerves?!?!?

I was feelin a little yucky (sick ) this morning. It seems to have gone away. I was sick to my stomach last night when I tried to eat dinner. So I guess since I have asked for it I am getting it now. You are very welcome. I just want you to know that in your time of need that you have friends on here that will help you through no matter what the outcome. I am just trying to keep you preoccupied while we await the results of this test. How are you feeling today? Besides sick to your stomach because of your nerves?!?!?

Jenny~I guess it's true, be careful what you wish for because you just might get it. I hope your yucky feelings stay minimal and that you are able to eat regularly. Peanut needs all the nutrition it can get....probably peanut butter :o! Seriously, I hope you continue to have minimal symptoms and a wonderful pregnancy. Are you wearing your maternity clothes your mom got for you? Peanut probably just wants a little breathing room in your britches :o! I just still have a little ache in my ribs but that's it. Nothing else. I know I shouldn't worry because I can't change it, but it is sooo difficult finally getting a high hcg and then hearing it didn't double. Last time I got a bfp it started out at 7 (whoa, slow down there little guy ;)), then went to 12.5, then 24, and eventually doubled and then faded. I expected bad news then, but this time I never saw it coming. Anyway, I'll just have to wait it out and pray!! Thanks again for your kind words Jenny! It helps!!

Red - It is funny that you mentioned peanut butter because that is what I brought with me to eat for lunch. I am still very nervous about tomorrow. I am praying that all is well and okay in there. i understand about the doubling factor. My second when it implanted too high in my uterus I started at a 39 and they put me on bedrest right away and then 4 days later it had only gone up to 84. At least we were able to know that there was a problem from the beginning. This has probably got to be the longest day of your life. I am there with you. We will tough it out until that phone rings with the news. I am just as nervous for you as I am about my u/s tomorrow. Just think positive. Yeah right?!?!?! Easier said then done. Love, prayers, and hugs.

Jenny~I have faith and a good feeling that your peanut's heart is going to be strong and proud tomorrow! I can only imagine your anxiety and pray for you! I, too, will be here for you and know it will be fine for you and peanut tomorrow.

Knowing the number was so high this time was reassuring and I guess that's what is so devastating is that last time I knew to be cautious but this time they said it would be fine. Maybe the timing I had planned and God's just aren't the same right now. I showed him I had a positive result in my planner when I prayed, but I think he just laughed at me dictating the timeline ::) Anyway, thank you SOOOOO much for being here for me during this as it is extremely difficult and your support has meant a lot from the get go.

Enjoy your peanut butter!!

Red - I have often felt that way about God laughing at me. He has given me such a gift to be able to take care of babies that are on ventilators and my godchildren and my own brother and sister that it seems I went to the top of the mountain with 2 other pregnancies and he said this is what you can't have. That is why I am so scared tomorrow. Sometimes I feel that he would rather make those of us who are his children and are faithful to him most times (we are not all perfect) suffer and give the blessings to those that don't know him or take pregnancy for granted that they don't care about the human being growing inside of them. It takes very strong women to go through the trials and tribulations of infertility and we are two of those women. We will deal with the hand that is dealt us with a smile on the outside while we are crying in pain on the inside and try again. That is what we do and that is what we will continue doing because we know it will work one day. We have that faith. That is what makes us strong and that is what makes us special and seperates us from those that take pregnancy for granted. We are better then them because we have struggled and suffered and had disappoinments and failures and we have also had positive times. We are women of infertility no matter how you try and slice it and we will always be that. But, in the end WE WILL BE MOMMIES!!!!!

Love you and hang in there.

Good afternoon ladies! Well, the drs. office called and while my numbers went up substantially, they did not double ??? My #'s on Monday were est. - 908, prog. - 83.4, and hcg 283. Today they are 1,101, 76.2, and 514. They are obviously still telling me it could be a tubal pregnancy or a vanishing twin as we had 2 embryos implanted. They said just to keep an eye on severe pain in one side or the other and vomiting. I have to go back on Friday and she said they wouldn't know anything official until an u/s at the end of next week. So, no real good news like I had hoped. Thank you all for your prayers and please continue to pray.

Jenny~In case I don't get a chance to talk to you again, GOOD LUCK tomorrow. I know it will all be wonderful and I'll say a prayer for you tonight.

Good luck to the rest of you also! May your pregnancies continue to be positive!!! Hugs to all you mommies!!

Okay Red - No the best of news but, it is still positive and getting higher. I am thinking more now along the same lines as you (vanishing twin) I am actually praying for that. I can't believe they will make you wait until next week for you u/s. How agonizing. Okay honey so when do you test again? I am happy that the HCG is still going up. BABYDUST HONEY BABYDUST!!!!! PRAYERS FOR YOU!!!!! GOOD BABY MOJO!!!!! Anyghing else you need?!?!?!? Thank you for your well wishes for my u/s tomorrow. Take care of yourself and rest. Talk to you later. Your miracle is still hanging in there with you. Rub that belly a lot girl!!!!!!

Jenny~thanks for the prayers, babydust, and good baby mojo! My dh is trying to be positive for me also and telling me that it could be either and let's just hang on to the positive option. My nurse who calls me is always honest, but caring so that's nice. I go back on Friday and then they said they wouldn't be able to see anything any earlier than the end of next week. I had my transfer on July 29.

Again, last time when it was 7 I could understand the pregnancy not going anywhere but this time I thought it would be better. Anyway, thank you again for the support and the roses (ironic that is my favorite flower and my dh just sent me a dozen on Friday for our anniv.). I pray your u/s goes well tomorrow and I'll be thinking of you tomorrow. Let us know how it goes. Hugs!!

Thank you Red - By the way what is your real name? It is easier to pray when you have a real name. I feel kind of silly Just praying for Red, unless you prefer that. You are very welcome. I am with the DH. Think on the positive side of the street!!!!!! Talk to you soon.

Jenny~I thought you'd probably get my real name off the e-mail I sent to you, but I don't mind telling you that it's Julie! Yes, I agree that it's better to pray for a real name but I know with this list serv it's difficult to do. I figured God knew who I was talking about so I just prayed for who I could :-\

Well it is nice to meet you Julie. Now I can pray the proper way for you personally. Thank you for your prayers for tomorrow. Nervous as all get out... Talk to you later.