Now where to begin...I'm going to have to go back and peek to make sure I answer all your questions, but first let's talk about you.
Sorry to hear you are having a "rough" day. I think we ALL can relate to that. I certainly can. You have alot on your plate right now, and you also have alot that you want done right now. The new house, a baby, medication expenses,etc. Its not a good feeling to have no control, which I guess is why we obsess over the things we can control, like charting and BD timing, etc. Hopefully a vacation will do us both some good, and maybe we can even go off happier and eating for two! God willing for us both! I would like to have a reason to not go out on the boat also!
DH is great about all of this, however, does not wear his emotions on his sleeve. Sometimes I think he doesn't really care, I know he does, but I sometimes feel like I am in this alone. It's depressing, but then I have to remind myself that if he didn't care he wouldn't be going with me to the appoinments, getting the SPA done, etc. He has that done on 8/16 and the RE wanted to meet with us 5 days after that. We will be in NC, so I guess we will schedule an appt. when we get back. Did your DH have that done? Just curious is all. Mine had 3 or 4 SA done, years ago now, but this is the first I even heard of a SPA and know what it is now! I feel ignorant and wish I had known alot more of what I know now a few years back. Not that it would or wouldn't change things, who knows. I just wish I was more informed, then.
Anyway the RE wants to go straight to IVF. Not really what we wanted to hear, but what could he say after 8 years of TTC and at least 10 cycles of clomid, including 4 failed IUI's. I was hoping he would present more "affordable" options out there, but he really didn't. He said perhaps injectables, but if he were us, he would skip over that step. So if her were us would he gamble his savings on one cycle of IVF??? I don't know, ALOT depends on the SPA results, because what if IVF is our only option. We haven't had that talk yet. Insurance won't cover it so it will be all on us. We have the money in savings, but if it failed, we certainly wouldn't be able to do it again. Maybe FET, but not another fresh cycle. It's a HUGE gamble, there are no guarantees. And I think about that too.
I have my DS, and maybe that's all I will ever have. I can live with that, I may have to. I'm not saying I quit or I am giving up, certainly far fromit, but I can't say at this point whether I can consider IVF either. Maybe injectables...but then you have to consider the cost of that (which you are WELL aware of) and a few cycles of that adds up! I am conflicted now, to say the least! AF is here and I am trying to be realistic.
Anyhow, I live in Tennessee. We moved here in October, from Florida, which is where I lived the past 8 years. I was born in raised in Coneecticut though, so we were almost neighbors at one time! I get back up there every other year. My DH is from CT as well.
Hopefully you have a better day tomorrow! It's an emotional ride, but we'll ride together! Sleep tight!