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Ginamarie -
I am so sorry for your hurt. I'm sorry for what you've been through on your journey this far. I really don't know where you find the strength to keep going in the middle of all the hurt. I started seeing a therapist in the middle of all my treatments...things got worse and worse and worse and I could not deal with it. I also started going back to church and heard a man speak and he spoke directly to me and my hurt. It was amazing. I'm not sure if you're the spiritual sort, but if you are, I will tell you what he told me.
The strength has to come from you. Unfortunately, you have to try to muster that strength in the middle of all these huge decisions about treatments, emotions of happiness and excitement, sadness and sorrow when things don't take...it's very hard. And, the hardest part is it all takes place in the matter of a few days...so it seems you only have a moment or two to be sad before you're being forced to make another life-altering decision about what you want to do next. It's very hard. My therapist told me that going through infertility doesn't allow time for real grieving. The grieving process is an actual and natural process...and when you're going through fertility treatments, you have a matter of days, sometimes minutes, to deal with the sorrow and the hurt before you have to try to put on your happy face and start it all over again. It IS an emotional roller coaster, one that sometimes isn't a whole lot of fun. I guess we just hope and pray that we find the strength to get up one more day, then once we're up, hope and pray that we find the strength to decide what to do about treatment. Even if you say you're going to take a break, it's never far from your thoughts, is it? You'll always see a baby, or a pregnant woman and you'll whip out your cell phone to schedule with your doctor right away. So, I guess it's like the movie "City Slickers" and Curley's one secret to life...he never said what it was leaving you to figure that out for yourself. So, what worked for me as strength might not work for you...your strength to go on has to come from you, be genuine...and sometimes that is NOT so easy. So I will pray for you - for healing of mind, body and soul - and I will pray that your strength will bubble up from your core and help carry you on your next steps on this arduous journey. I'm sorry for your hurt and for what you've been through, but I truly hope that you are able to win this battle and be victorious over infertility. Please keep us posted and keep coming back!!
Gidd -
I'm not sure there is anything to prevent bruises...I was told by two blood doctors and two OBs that it was just not possible to avoid bruises with Lovenox. I asked everyone in a white coat how to avoid them. But, with the needle going through tiny little capillaries when you inject, then injecting blood thinner that touches those tiny little capillaries, you're going to get lots of painful bruises that look like you may be in line for the World Champion Boxing title. Some women bruise REALLY badly, some don't bruise nearly as badly...everybody, and every body, is different. Though, I do LOVE Jean's home remedies: peanut butter, sugar and lard. What a riot. I really think I would get a HUGE kick out of slathering my pregnant body with butter or lard. My husband might, too! Though I couldn't do peanut butter...I'd be hungry all day!! Though, now I am hungry because peanut butter, butter, sugar and lard sounds like the beginning of a great Paula Deen recipe!! Best of luck with those pesky little needles and keep us posted. You're a WONDERFUL man, Gidd...bless your heart!!
HeatherMak
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