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Wow! I'm the first to post! So, how is everyone doing? I am feeling sort of down tonight...I don't know why, just impatient and sad. I know that all good things come in God's timing, but still...

I guess it's because I just found out from two different sources that some of my friends from the past are having babies...one of them didn't want a baby for 3 more years and the other had endometriosis and was told she couldn't have kids and now she just found out she is pregnant. It's hard. I am very happy for both of them, just frustrated and maybe a little jealous.

Shouldn't I just be happy? Or is it normal to feel this way? Anyway, sorry to start a new board with this mood! Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Baby dust to all!

ambersparkle wrote:

Wow! I'm the first to post! So, how is everyone doing? I am feeling sort of down tonight...I don't know why, just impatient and sad.
[glow=GREEN,2,300]FROM MAHOGANY HEART: OH BABY I'M SORRY TO HEAR THAT ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT PHILIPPIANS 4:6 SAYS: Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. THE NEXT VERSE AS FOLLOWS SAYS PHILIPPIANS 4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. THE VERSE AFTER THAT READS PHILIPPIANS 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. IF YOU CAN KEEP HOLD TO THESE THINGS AMBERSPARKLE I PROMISE YOU WILL BE FINE.[/glow]

[glow=ORANGE,2,300]REMEMBER YOU ARE NOT ALONE. [/glow]

I know that all good things come in God's timing, but still... [glow=BLUE,2,300]TRUST ME I KNOW THE BUT STILL BUT YOU MUST STAY FOCUS AND KEEP THE FAITH[/glow]

I guess it's because I just found out from two different sources that some of my friends from the past are having babies...one of them didn't want a baby for 3 more years and the other had endometriosis and was told she couldn't have kids and now she just found out she is pregnant. [glow=RED,2,300]I REMEMBER ALMOST THE SAME THING HAPPENED TO ME AND I CRIED AND CRIED BUT I HAD TAKE CONTROL OF MYSELF AND MY INFERTILILTY PROBLEMS AND ONE OF THE MAIN THINGS THAT HELPED ME WAS MY SISTERHOOD. I THANK GOD FOR THEM DAILY AND I PRAY FOR THEM DAILY. I KNOW THAT THE LORD WILL BLESS THEM AND GIVE THEM THE DESIRES OF THEIR HEART AND I STAND ON HIS WORD. THE SISTERHOOD WAS AND IS ONE OF THE BEST THING THAT COULD HAVE EVER HAPPENED TO MY INFERTILITY PROBLEM. [/glow] It's hard. [glow=YELLOW,2,300]OF COURSE IT IS HARD EVERY DAY WAS A STRUGGLE BUT TAKING CONTROL OF MY EMOTIONS AND STAYING POSITIVE HELP ME DEEPLY.[/glow] I am very happy for both of them, just frustrated and maybe a little jealous.
[glow=PINK,2,300]YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE TO GET RID OF ALL THOSES NEGATIVE THOUGHTS AND EMOTIONS. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.[/glow]

Shouldn't I just be happy? [glow=PURPLE,2,300]YOU ASK SHOULD YOU BE HAPPY AND YOU COULD BE TOLD MANY THINGS BUT THE ANSWER LIES WITHIN YOU. ONLY YOU KNOW HOW YOU TRULY FEEL. WHEN MY BEST FRIEND GOT PREGNANT I WAS HURT AND I CRIED. SHE DIDN'T WANT ANY MORE CHILDREN. SHE FELT AS IF HER DAUGHTER AND SON WAS ALL SHE NEEDED AND SHE WAS FAITHFUL TO HER BIRTH CONTROL AND SHE GOT PREGNANT ANYWAY. I WAS HURT AND CRIED BECAUSE I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND HOW SHE WAS BLESS WITH A BABY SHE DIDN'T EVEN WANT AND I WANTED A BABY SO BAD AND COULDN'T GET PREGNANT IF YOU PAID ME. I WAS HAPPY FOR HER BECAUSE SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND AND NATURALLY YOU WANT THE BEST FOR YOUR FRIENDS.[/glow] Or is it normal to feel this way? [glow=NAVY,2,300]YOU CAN HONESTLY SAY IT IS NORMAL IN AN INFERTILITY CASE TTC. THE DESIRE TO HAVE A BABY AND IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YOU CAN'T GET ONE IS VERY DEPRESSING AND YOU BEGIN TO DOUBT ALOT OF THINGS. THERE ARE SO MANY EMOTIONS GOING ON AND IT SEEMS AS IF NO ONE UNDERSTAND. YOU GET INTO THESE MOOD SWINGS YOU CAN'T SHAKE SOMETIMES.[/glow] Anyway, sorry to start a new board with this mood! [glow=TEAL,2,300]YOU ARE FINE PRAY MORE AND STRESS LESS.[/glow] Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Baby dust to all!

[glow=RAINBOW,2,300]SORRY TO BE LONG[/glow]

Hey ambersparkle,

It's totally normal and natural to feel that way. It's also completely possible to be both happy for your friend and sad and maybe a little jealous at the same time. I know a lot of people who are pregnant right now, too, and I feel the same way. DH's cousin just got married a month ago and she's already pregnant, and it happened by accident. I was so hurt when I heard, because she wasn't even planning on getting pregnant and it was so easy for her. And my MIL talks about it now constantly and says how exciting it is that she's pregnant and it makes me feel even worse.

Try your best not to get too down about it. When I am feeling sad and I feel like everyone in the living world is pregnant but me, I try to remember that things are not as bad as they seem. It may seem like it is taking forever to get pregnant and that it might never happen, but usually when you want something so badly and you're so emotional about it you feel like the situation is worse than it really is. Just be patient (hard to do, I know!) and when you feel like you need to vent, you definitely can on here. There are so many people on here who understand exactly what you're going through.

Leslie

Hey Ambersparkle,
I think all of us dealing with infertility have felt what you are feeling. I've gone through many emotions with my friends who get pregnant....sadness, anger, envy, happiness, love etc. There is nothing you can do but wish them well and try to keep your mind off of it.

At one time I would hide out and not go to baby showers or anywhere else there were babies. I can tell you it does get easier with time. I've been dealing with infertility for 12 years and about six years ago I finally reached the point of winning over my feelings. Do I still have regrets and envy...YES...but at least now I can feel joy for my friends. I finally figured out that it wasn't the loss of carrying a baby for nine months but the loss of being able to raise and share your life with a child.

Try to surround yourself with little ones. Volunteer to rock the newborns at the nearest hospital, work in the church nursery, offer to babysit for friends and relatives that have little ones.

Hang in there...every emotion we experience soon passes so another can take it's place. Listen to what Mahogany Heart has to say, she said it perfectly.

Sending a HUGE Hug and Baby Dust to you, Sammy

Keep The Faith!!!


Smile!!!


Hugs and Love!!!

:) Good afternoon, ladies~

Thanks for all the positive affirmations and advice. I am feeling a little better today. I prayed a lot last night and spent some time journaling my feelings (I'm a writer, so that always helps for me). I sort had to suck it up and get on with my life this morning, since I am a teacher by occupation and work with kids 9 months-4 years. I guess that all of the happy reports from other people just caught me off-guard.

Anyway, thanks for all the support-

~Amber

P.S.-Another one of my best guy-friends from High School e-mailed me today and told me that his wife is pregnant (I just found out) and she is due on my birthday...
God really has a strange sense of humor sometimes!

How ladies how are you today!

I'm doing great! I'd love to hear your progress so far!

Baby Dust!

A new board!
Thanks Sammy, at least I know something isn't wrong with me now! I still am having a sharp pain on my side, but no other symptoms, and it's too early to O. I keep hoping that this will work!! Everywhere I read about the herb vitex is that it's good for luteal phase defects, estrogen dominance, PMS, amenorrhea, PCOS symptoms, and regulating irregular af's. It's hard to be patient for the herb to work though!! I keep telling myself to give it time to fully work. I hope I see some differences!!!

Good luck to everyone, keep the faith Ambersparkle! My aunt just got the news that she is pregnant after ttc for 5 years. And she's having twins!! She suffers from PCOS, a tilted uterus, and a septum in her uterus. But she got there!! She is what gives me hope!

Baby dust, baby dust, baby dust!!

Juel

Hey everyone I am thinking of ordering Ovulex tonight. I have PCOS and my husband and I have tried for 3 years to have children and we have not conceived yet. Clomid did nothing for me and we have no infertility coverage with our insurance. I never know when I will have my AF and I will go months without it. My normal basel temp is real low at 96.4 that is another thing that I am hopeing that Ovulex will help with. Can anyone tell me their experience with ovulex?


Cassi
Kemp,TX

Hello All:

Just checking in and say Hello - hope all had a good and safe Holiday.

Hello Ladies,
Quick ?.....did anyone experience an extra long af after their first month on ovulex? As you all probably recall I was 24 days late and finally started af last thursday. It's been a week now and af doesn't appear to be stopping. Normally it lasts for about 4 days, heavy on the 2nd day and light the others. This time it's been light all 7 days. Just wondering if the ovulex is maybe making my cycle a little more "regular" than just the short 4 days. Hopefully I will also regulate my cycle closer to 28 days than the original 34 (last month excluded). Any info would be appreciated.

Steph:)

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Hi Everyone!!

Ambersparkle: How are you today? When I was trying to conceive, I too felt extremely down for a couple of days & almost wanted to give up & throw in the towel......but there was always a little voice on the inside of me that told me to keep going & to continue to believe for my anticipated miracle. Within a few months after that time period, I conceived unexpectedly & was in shock.....so no matter what; Keep praying, keep confessing & PLEASE continue to believe. Your miracle is probably right around the corner........

Mahogany Heart: Your post above was very inspiring..........You definitely have a gift of exhortation & encouragement.

Keep the Faith Everyone!
Supernatural Babydust to You!
Monica ;)

Hey gals~
I'm better today. I have really been reflecting on everything and taking control of my emotions one step at a time. I have realized that no matter how many bumps I hit along this journey; the bumps themselves will only serve to make me more thankful and joyous when I arrive at my destination.

I just want to say thanks again to all of you who posted above with encouragement and support when I was feeling so down. I feel like I can truly call all of you my sisters!!! Baby Dust to All!! ;D

;D Hello, ladies! I am new here. I have been on about a billion boards and have been ttc with DH for about two years to no avail. Unexplained Infertility. Gotta love it!

Here's the lowdown, so I don't have to go thru the weird, new girl on the board that doesn't really know anyone, stage:
(not really good at starting fresh, so every month is too much for me)

ME 26, DH 31
Married since 6/11/04
trying since (shamefully) 6/10/04 (we had to get rid of the cold feet somehow :P)
Regiment: Fertility Blend 3rd cycle (non-consecutive), geritol 1st cycle.
CD3 of 28 day cycle, ovulate normally
cervical cancer survivor since 1999

If anyone is on the board, I would love to talk to someone. I have been on billions of boards and it seems nice here. You ladies actually respond to each other's inquiries. You don't seem to form little cliques within the board. I was a member of babycenter's board for about 7 months when I realized that my messages didn't mean much to most and no one really responded to my questions. I felt like Rudolph the Red nosed Reindeer!!! You all support eachother. I love that, and I'd like to be apart of that, if it's ok with you all.

I look forward to getting to know you all.....

Monique


*Remember, HE that is in you is greater than he that is in the world! YOU ARE NOT convicted of infertility, you do not own it, nor do you believe in it! Believe in your faith, and yourself and you can overcome ANYTHING!

Welcome to the board, Monique! My DH and I got married the week before you! We're almost anniversary buddies! This board is most definitely the place to be if you are looking for support on your journey! Welcome!

Baby dust to you! ;)

Hello Ambersparkle!!! I am so glad you acknowledged me. I've been lurking on this board for about a year and have taking a specific liking to the circle that meets on this particular thread. You are all awesome.

Thank you for the wonderful welcome. I am 26, originally from RI, live in GA, Real Estate Agent, and desperately seeking baby!

I am so tired of going places and everyone's belly is bulging with bliss BUT MINE! I hate to sound like a brat, but what did I ever do to anyone to deserve this? Obviously I know better, but I can't help but to think I crossed someone in the past and it has come back to rear it's ugly head!