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Asunflower,
You are welcome that is what we are all here for. Good luck today with your beta I know you are anxious. There are tons of good stories out there just try to stay positive. You and dh are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kris

Asunflower-I am thinking of you and saying prayer for you that all goes well today.

Well bad news. Beta went down. It is not a viable pregnancy. I was finally positive but now I don't know what to think. We are going to try our frozen embies and see what happens. Thanks for all your prayers and support. It has helped a lot.

Kris- best of luck to you through your next months.
Lani-thanks for your kind words, even when things were rough for you. I appreciate it.

Asunflower
I am SO sorry for your loss. I wish you the best of luck with your frozen cycle. You have a great attitude about everything so I hope you continue to keep that.

Best of luck

Lani,
I am trying. It is so hard , as you experienced. My hands are tied. It is up to God and I can only keep positive and keep wishing and praying. My husband helps me stay positive a lot. He is great. May I ask where you are looking into adoption from?

Asun- I know it is so hard, and life is just not fair!!!! The worst is having absolutely no control over it! It makes me really angry, I know after I found out I felt myself wanting to throw something and break something.......I am not a violent person! Just know that you have done everything that you can...

We are still in the beginning stages of looking into adoption. We have an appt for an info session at one of the agencies on June 13th, in the meantime I bought some books and we will be talking to a few people we know that have done it or going through it. My initial thought is to say we will go domestically but who knows the international adoptions are quicker and less risky......but way more $. There is still so much I don't know....just need to start somewhere

Lani

Lani,
Keep me posted. I am curious about the process and with me being 31 and no longer having insurance to cover things after this next frozen cycle we may look into it. I know the anger feeling. I am not eitehr but I keep trying to blame everyone and everything. It is so hard to have the control! Thanks for letting me vent! No one knows how it feels accept the ladies online here. You are the only ones who can relate.

Asunflower,
I am so sorry for your loss I wish there was something I could do but I know that is not possible. I wish you the best of luck in whatever path you choose to follow. I think that adoption is a very admirable path to chose to be a parent. If you choose to go through with your FET I wish you the best of luck. Again I am so sorry I really thought that this was your lucky IVF.
Kris

Kris,
Me too. We may try one more fresh cycle since our insurance will pay for it and then move onto other options. I am just not ready to give up yet.

Asunflower and Lani,
I was just checking in to see how you are both doing, you are both in my thoughts and prayers. I am not sure if you will be checking in back here from time to time just wanted to say hello. I know there is nothing I can do or say but I just wanted to let you both know I was thinking of you.
Kris

Thanks Kris
I will be checking back in to see how things are going with you! Keep me posted on your progress! We decided we are going for a fresh cycle one more time!

Asunflower, I'm so sorry about your results. Be good to yourself. Words arent' enough to explain going through all the hopes and all sudden, you feel that your world is falling apart.

I'm glad to see that your DH is positive and that will help you. If you have to cry and be miserable, just do it. Your mind has to process all that anxiety and pain. But don't let yourself go too low. I understand that the hardest part is not being able to control any of this. The only thing you can do is to brace yourself and never lose hope. It's always when the situation seems to be the most desparate that you see a lillte light and this is the beginning of something new and good.
I've been in your shoes.... I know the motion.

Try to do something you enjoy this weekend. You can't give up.

You're in my thougths and prayers.
Tons of baby dust to you.

Fiso

Thanks for the support Fiso. How far along were you when you miscarried the first time? I am ready to go another round but I just am questioning why it would work this next time. The BFP was there and then it went down hill. It helps to talk to people who know what it is like. DH is great but of course not a woman. Keep me posted on your progress!

Just checking in to see how everyone is doing. I was thinking of you all and just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Kris

Kris,
I am doing ok. We decided to do another fresh cycle so we will start BCP in June and then onto the shots for July. I hope this will be the one. I am ready to go another round! How are you feeling these days?

Asunflower,
Wow your next cycle is coming up quick I wish you the best of luck and tons of Baby Dust!!!! They do say that the third time is a charm and it will be in your case plus you have tons of embies on ice!

I have been extremely ill and my OB had to put me on Zofran to stop the vomitting, other than that I have been great.

Kris