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Hi ladies, I went to the air force base to be checked out after my car accident. They told me that I would be having a new doc. When she walked in the room she looked familiar to me and she said I also looked familiar. We thought and thought and then it hit me. She was in the pregnancy class that we have to take for our military insurance. S***!!!!!! She looked at me, smiled and said she was doing great and asked how I was. I burst into tears and said I had m/c. My hubby was with me and gave me that look that said, Hold it together. The poor thing looked so uncomfortable that I almost felt bad for reacting so strongly. I then felt so angry that I wanted to leave. I felt like I had been slapped in the face and stabbed in the heart at the same time. But like a good infertile I composed myself and finished talking about my sore neck and back, blah, blah blah.
When we got to the car I started crying and just started yelling, I wanted to know why other people get to have their babies live and all mine have died. My husband was crying and we just drove along until the strong feelings subsided. Geez. I thought I had come to terms with most of this and then this. You just never know what is around the corner.
My husband called me later to say that I guy at work just told everyone that his wife is pregnant with twins. I guess it is a hard on the heart day. Tomorrow is guarenteed to be a good one then.
Sorry for the downer.
My hystosalpingogram is for Monday. Yuck!! I will be glad to get it over with. I will tell myself that it wont be as bad a childbirth if its too uncomfortable.
Take care all. My prayers are with all of us.
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