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Wow. You ask a very pertinent question...DH and I were just talking about this over the weekend.
We want two children. Actually, we wanted more, but given my age and the trouble we had...we've resolved ourselves to two. I'm an only, and I am ADAMANT about more than one - it's less fun the older I get and I don't want to do that to my child.
However, how are we going to GET two children?? I'm not sure we have the financial resources to go through what we went through to get this baby. I had to have several surgeries and I have to see so many doctors that I owe several hospitals all kinds of money since our deductible is so damned high...the worst part is I had two major surgeries exactly one year apart because my endometriosis is SO bad that it takes over and ruins everything...and it gets in the way of the fertility treatments...so between treatments and drugs and surgeries...I'm not sure we have the money to do it all. And, to top it all off, my insurance won't even cover TWO of the prescriptions I have to be on to get pregnant...and that costs me over $300 each month.
Now, adoption might be an option, but I'm not sure where we'll get the money for that either. It's all so hard. We're going to wait until the baby is at least a year before we start talking about what to do next. Hopefully by that time, we'll have a better grasp on our financial situation and will have paid off these damned medical bills. That will give us a better idea of what we have and what we can do.
I go see so many doctors, I have injections twice a day for the MTHFR thing, and I really can't imagine going through all of this with a toddler...so I don't know. Maybe I'll feel differently when the time comes, but my OB and RE both seem to think my situation is getting worse...they said they could try to get me one good pregnancy, but beyond that, they couldn't say...so I know if we go back to IF treatments, it's an uphill battle for us from the start.
It breaks my heart to know that our IF battle is not over...and never will be. We are VERY blessed and I thank God every day for the miracle He has given me. I still cannot believe that we'll have a baby in 9 days!! Rather than worry about baby #2, I'm just concentrating on this baby and leaving the rest to God...it will be however it's meant to be...whether we have another of our own, or bring a baby into our home that needs loving parents, it will happen exactly as it is to happen...I just have to remember that and quit worrying about it right now. But, it's hard.
So there's my answer. I hope this helps...I honestly never in a million years imagined that I would go throught what I went through to get pregnant this time, so who knows about #2. Three years ago I would have told you that you were NUTS if you had said I would jump through all these hoops just to get pregnant, but here I am...so who knows??
Good luck in your decision and I hope you're able to find the answers you're looking for. I hope we all are.
HeatherMac
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