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BabyBound,
Like Cassandra, I had to go back to work when DS was just teeny. My poor baby was just 5 weeks old when I had an unreasonable client demand that I do my job. Hello?? So, in order to keep money in the bank, well, off I went. Cassandra, maybe that's part of our problem - going back to work so VERY soon?? Hmm. I work for myself, too, but it's hard to say no when the bills come due. We just sold our second house so we've been making TWO payments on EVERYTHING for A YEAR!! Ugh.
The biggest kicker, after I shlep to work when my dear little son is 5 weeks old and I'm unsure of what the hell is going on...the client decides to TAKE A BREAK! HAHAHAHA!! I was livid, but what are you going to do??
The problem is being self-employed, I have no income if I don't work. So, while I had a set time off I wanted to hold to, I had to readjust that based on the needs of my clients. I will FOREVER feel guilty that I put that over the needs of my bitty baby son. If God will bless us with another baby, I will take off as much time as I feel I need to take off...without concern for anyone other than the baby.
My advice, and what I will do next time: go on food stamps if you have to, but take as much time as you need with the baby. It's only fair to you, your baby/babies and your husband. No, your baby will never know if you took five days off or five months, but you will...and that guilt is a lot harder to live with. An old woman gave me that advice, about the food stamps, and I laughed it off when she said it. Now, I wish I had taken that advice. I worked to pay the bills, but I missed out on time I can't get back wtih my son. If I could have had help paying the bills, well, hell, I'd still be off.
There you go - my two cents. Might only be worth half a cent, but there you go.
I'm glad to hear you're well, BabyBound...though I'm sorry you have to be back at work. The worst is when people ask about the baby and the only think you can think is "I'D RATHER BE WTIH THEM THAN YOU!" but you smile kindly and say how sweet and wonderful life is now with baby to make it all better! Keep your chin up and know that we're out there with you, wanting to be home when we cna't be home. But, like someone here said - we're doing great as Mommy, home or at work...so don't beat yourself up too badly over it. You're providing for that baby, whether you're at home or at work, and that is the greatest gift you could give that baby.
Have a great day/night everyone!!
Love and hugs and encouragement to you all!!
XOXOXO
HeatherMac
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