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I just read Karen's post in "3rd Trimester" about actually posting updates, and while I was feeling a little reseved, after reading her post, I decided I would post an update. It is sometimes very hard for me to post because I know so many deserving women do hurt, and it's hard to post happy things. I don't want to feel like I'm rubbing it in their faces...because I'm not, and I would never want to hurt someone who hurts as only an infertile woman can understand. But, I also remember getting some inspiration from these posts, so here we go!
I fee like I'm the size of a house and move just as gracefully as an elephant. You know how they always look so troubled at just having to get up?? Well, that's how I feel. Though, I have to admit that I still giggle when I waddle by a window or a mirror when I'm out somewhere...I still cannot believe that I am 8 1/2 months pregnant!!
We got confirmation that our c-section is scheduled for Thursday, November 10 @ 9AM. After 4 years, we will finally be able to meet little Duncan!! We are SO excited!!
I have no idea how big he is, we tried to have a 3D ultrasound last week, but his head was burried in the placenta, and he was being SO STUBBORN, so no cool pix of Baby D. But, we did get a nice little "traditional" u/s pic of his BIG fat foot!! It was right in front of his face like he was sucking his toes right before the picture. HAHA!! I mentioned this to my parents, and they said that I used to suck my toes ALL the time...so it's neat to see a little bit of Mommy being passed to him already.
The oddest thing is we have no idea how big he may be...we've not been given an estimate of his size, but it's bad when the u/s tech asked DH if he was a large baby...so we know Duncan is a sizeable dude...just HOW sizeable is yet unknown.
It does sadden me a bit because I know this will probably be the only biological child I will have...and I have enjoyed it so much...I feel a little robbed - I went for so long to so many doctors who just blew me off!! If they hadn't, well, needless to say, we wouldn't have been the only infertile couple we know. That's why I haven't been posting much...I've been feeling so good that I'm trying to make sure I cement every single thing into my memory so I will always remember what it was like to be pregnant. We have waited so long, and wanted this so badly for so long...and knowing that this may be it...we just revel in every little kick, hiccup, pain and doctor visit. Regardless of the joy and blessing we have been given, we are still the infertile couple we were earlier this year...and that is sometimes a bitter pill to swallow. I guess I just still can't believe that I'm pregnant, so I'm trying to memorize each and every thing I can.
Well, I've rambled enough...just wanted to share the good news about our arrival date!! The baby furniture comes tomorrow, and the nursery is finally painted and carpeted...and for the FIRST time in my life, what I had envisioned in my mind ACTUALLY materialized!! Not even my wedding came out like I had hoped...but this whole nursery...well, I feel like I've actually accomplished something I wanted to actually accomplish!!
I'm glad to hear everyone down here is doing so well and progressing nicely!! It's neat to see the progress everyone is making after such an unpleasant journey. I just hope that our sisters upstairs can join us here soon.
XOXOXO
HeatherMac
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