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WantBaby2 -
You know, I had nightmares like that, too. I had a lot of rollercoaster dreams. I usually like rollercoasters, but these were really scary coasters, and the nightmares terrified me. It was awful. Sometimes I would wake up unable to move or breathe they were so scary. I had lots of scary rollercoaster dreams and tornado dreams. They were all horrible, and I kept asking my RE if the meds would cause nightmares, but he kept telling me no.
My therapist, however, told me that given the situation (infertility), the nightmares made perfect sense. She reasoned the rollercoasters represented all the ups and downs we go through with treatment...our lack of control through ANY of it...and how quickly it all has to happen. If you think about it, when someone goes through something really bad in their life, they usually have time to mourn it. We infertiles, however, get mere DAYS to get through the rough bits and mourn the sadness before we have to head back up the hill again to be positive and happy and start all the meds - and the ride - all over again. Severe ups then severe downs...all at speeds we just shouldn't be travelling...especially when we can't be in the driver's seat.
So, while it may not help your nightmares, it unfortunately makes perfect sense. You're up, you're down, you're up, you're down...and it's all so quick and you're being jerked in one different direction after another. This is a rough ride, my dear. One I'm sorry anyone has to go through...much less women as wonderful as all of us. ;)
Just remember that you have friends here who care about you and know exactly what you're going through. While the rollercoaster may be horrible and scary, we're right there beside you...along for the ride.
I hope your day gets better.
HeatherMac
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